Bang Bang

Baby shot me in the heart.

I need to get away. For reasons unmentionable to anyone.

Best Iced Coffee My Ass

I finally tried the hyped up iced coffee from McDonald's and boy was i disappointed. Maybe it is because I work at Starbucks and my taste buds are aquatinted with good stuff. I don't know. But for all they hype, it was nothing. I can't even finish it. It is still sitting, full, on the coffee table. I don't think I can finish it

How I love Jon and Kate plus 8. Those kids are absolutely adorable! 

As of today

Things are finally looking up. I'm way proud of myself. Though other things are still rocky, it's ok. I haven't felt this good in so long.

Thanks God. You're the best =D

Dear Friend,

You have changed a lot. Not only do I feel this way, but so do many others. We do not appreciate it. I miss the times we used to have when we were free. Not just free in the sense of time, but free as an individual and not a couple. Things have changed, priorities are mixed with feelings. Nothing is what it should be. Soon you will leave me and be far from home. Will he still be there for you like your family and friends? Maybe he will, but how long will it last? The title is just a title and nothing more.  All I can do is sit back and watch my best friend have a boyfriend. Sit, and watch her consume her time with him while pushing others aside. Sit. That is all I can do. I've said what I've said, and I do not regret it. Maybe I am a bad friend for feeling this way. Maybe even a worse friend for saying this here. But there is no other way to say it. I can't even go shopping with you, have lunch with you because your time is with your boyfriend. Perhaps I am jealous that my other half has got another half instead of me. Perhaps I am worried. Dear friend, I will be here for you no matter what. I love you to death. Always and forever. Right now, it's just hard thinking. Did I lose my other half? No more sleepovers, no more late night talks, no more random adventures. These all go to your boyfriend now. Not only do I see the difference in your attitude, but someone else really close to you does too. We are sitting back and watching. We do not like what we see, but there is nothing that we can do about it. I hope you can take a step back and see for yourself how much you are hurting those around you. I love you more than you know and I will always be here for you through thick and thin. When things don't work out, I'll be here. When you guys get in a fight, I'll be here. Don't ever doubt that I love you because I don't like the relationship you're in. Our love is not based on that. We have a strong bond. This hurts me more than you may ever know. It has been one of the worst years ever and it just feels even worse when i seems as if I am losing my best friend, the one person I open up to the most. I hope this is not the end. I love you. More than you know. I'm sorry for hurting you in any way and that is never my intention. I will just sit back and wait. That is all I can do.

-Sara Borrego

Be Who You Want

This summer has been the worst summer ever by far. And since it has started, it has just gone downhill. Everyday just brings more and more misery into my life. And frankly, I'm tired of it. This summer, as strange as it may sound, is probably worse than the summer my cousin passed away and the summer after my stepdad passed away. And those were two consecutive summers in a row. 2008 has not been good to me like I had hoped.

I'm ususally not a negative nellie by any means. I try to find the good in things but this summer, it is so hard to find any good in all the bad that has happened/that I am feeling.

Here's a little rundown on everything that has been coming my way, in a negative way:
1. School. It's worse than you think, trust me.
2. My fucking car.
3. My FUCKING dad.
4. My friends. I'm not mad, just frustrated.
5. Work.
6. Drama that is really none of my buisness but people are dragging me into it.
7. Losing this game of life.
8. My extended family.

I'm only 19, give me a fucking break God. My short life has had more downs than most people experience in their whole life. And I'm way tired of it. I'm tired of going to be every night wishing my life wasn't as complicated and that I had the luxuries of a dad, the closeness so many people have with their families. I look around and yea, you can say I am jealous of my friends. And then
I look again, and see how so many of them take what they have for granted. You don't know how lucky you are until you lose it. And I've lost so much of it. I just want to get out of here. I want to make my own life somewhere else. Too bad everything is so fucking expensive and makes it impossible for a 19 year old to live on their own. Fuck my life.

Whenever I feel like this, I always tell myself "It could be worse." But I think this is it. I've spilled over. I've had it. I feel like i'm losing everything in life, from my dreams down to my friends. This is awful.

i am suprised

that i have not tried to kill myself. i have the worst luck. ever.

I Hate

That I let things bother me so much. Apparently, it doesn't phase the other person. But I'm learning to deal and slowly let go and let happen what I once greatly feared. It is inevitable. there is nothing I can do to change what they have decided. I'm ready. It's no more Miss nice Sara. I'm done with crying every night before bed, worrying over something that is/ was so important in my life. That "it" just does their own thing and, I mean, get over it.



Thats all I need to do. Get over it.

Best Friends

how i love their gay best friend-ness

well

1. congrats nonosina. san jose tahiti fete overall 2008 winners. well deserved. we danced for the dance, not for the prize.

2. r.i.p. paloma. i miss you terribly.

3. fml. i'm joining the navy.

4. life just keeps going down hill and i dont know how much more of it i can take.



peace