Here's To...

2 weeks of sleeping on Tonie's unconfortable sofa's. Thank you for picking out uncomfortable soaf's. Since I am the one that sleeps on those puppies more often than anyone, I think I should have picked out the winners.-____-
I'm so sorry back. You will be in pain once again =[

Give To Get

O.k. So it's Christmas time right? And what better way to celebrate the holiday than giving gifts to those you love. And let's face it, I know you love me. So here is my Christmas List '08. Anything on this list would make me a happy camper. So if you love me, which I know you do, get me these magical gifts and I assure you, I will be happy. And I guess I could get you a gift too.


1. Nintendo DS. Help me waste my time.



2. Bluetooth Headset. I don't know why, but all of a sudden I am fascinated by them. Something of this sort (ahem world's smallest) would work perfectly.




3. An iHome docking station. I realize I kinda need this more and more when I begin cleaning. As crazy as it may sound, I'm tired of my mixed CD's.

4. These crazy Obama shoes. Genius. Available Here: http://www.zazzle.com/barack_obama_red_green_gold_kedsshoe-167152828405120159

(I wasn't able to get the picture here. Sad)

5. One of these to help me while I am babysitting.

6. My baby =[

7. My other baby. I want him to sing me to bed every night.

And if you're too lazy to work at getting me a meaningful gift (like the ones shown above), I will happily accept gift cards to the following places:

Target

Jamba Juice

Chipotle

Urban Outfitters

H&M

Nordies

Metropark

M.A.C.

Sephora

A Day Spa would be pretty cool.

Or one of those girft cards you can use anywhere.

These options are only open to those friends of mine that are:

1. Pregnant. (Jenna ;))

2. Out of town. (Family)

3. If you don't really love me. (No one should fall into this category)

O.k, so I don't really expect any of this from anyone. Let's face it, Tonie and Albert wouldn't even get any of this for me. But whatever. Merry Christmas to you and yours.

P.S. Happy Anniversary (kinda late) to Jenna and Matt. 2 years. Congrats. And to their love child, Silas. Congrats dude. You should celebrate with some Patron on ice. Cause you can have whatever you lik. Right yenna?!

Handy Manny?

As I immerse myself more and more into young children's television programming, the more I learn new things. Things like ho to sing the alaphet in an annoyingly high pitched tone and a high pitched voice. Or how to play with puppets. Or, my personal favorite, how to speak broken spanish thanks to Dora and Diego. Ahh, the wonders of children's programming.

Last night, as we were watching The Santa Clause, I learned a lot.

1) The 'Claus' in 'The Santa Claus' is actually 'Clause" like the type of clause you learn about in school. Crazy, huh? I never noticed until last night.

2) The voice of Handy manny is none other than Wilmer Valderrama! If you've never seen the show (which I bet you haven't because you are not surrounded by kids 24/7), this show is Playhouse Disney's (Disney's equivelent to Nick Jr) version of Dora or Diego. This Manny dude is a handy man. And, just like Dora and Diego, he teaches kids broken spanish. I say if you're going to try and teach spanish, at least teach full phrases, not just useless words like "estrella" or "come on, vamonos." Really, if any child depending on Dora, Deigo, or Manny's taught spanish ends up in Mexico, they are screwed.

Maybe I'm just stubborn that I can't watch t.v. Or maybe its the fact that I went to bed at 4 a.m. studying and just woke up to the sounds of screaming kids. Either way, childrens programming has a flaw. And in case you were wondering, yes, I think the name "Handy Manny" is dirty. Handy Manny and his tools just sounds wrong.

Steer Your Attention

Thank you to those of you who read my blog. But instead of reading my blog, I really think you would love, yes love, to consume your time reading this : http://abarclay12.wordpress.com/ . Trust me. You will NOT be disappointed.

This is my high school english teachers blog. Nikki brought it to my attention on Friday, and I must say, I am addicted. Her stories are crazy hilarious. I forgot how awesome she was and it mad me really miss my high school days sitting in her english class. My absolute favorite part of her blog has to be her occasional videos. Hi-lar-ious!

Good luck to all of you studying for finals. I'm in that boat to and right now, I just want to, well, let my head explode into a million pieces. I bet you feel the same way.

Universal Mind Control

Get it, get it, get it, get it! He was amazing to say the least.

Holiday Shopping

Today I mat up with an old friend from high school. My good old friend Sandra! We went to Olive Garden and then we walked around the Brea Mall. And I got some shopping done!!! There was this sale at the Disney Store. Basically anything and everything that Bubba or Haydin would ever want in that store was 50% off! So I got their gifts along with Kristy's. Score! and I wasn't even trying to get shopping done. My only goal was to buy a purse for myself. That didn't work, but I did get me a nice little dress for them holiday parties. Those holiday parties that don't even exist. But if one comes up, I am well prepared ;)

Today, I can say that I got really frustrated. I couldn't make the Obey sale
1. Cause my Walking For Fitness teacher is a moron and made us walk 5 miles -_- I am sooo glad I will never see her again, let alone hear her yell "and bend like a concordian!" What an idiot.
2. I am now a mother?! WTF?????? I have been taking care of these kids all week everyday. Don't get me wrong, I love my niece and nephew. But kids are not my thing. I was about to lose my mind if i did not leave the house tonight. AND today, my nephew decided it would be a good idea to stress me out and play in the mud. I was furious to say the least and sent him to time out and then made him take a nap. He was mad at me, I was mad at him. Maybe he will think twice before playing in the mud next time.

Nonosina's Christmas show is tomorrow. Yippeee. If I were still dancing, I would imagine that I would be that much more unhappy. I guess it's a good thing I stopped.

Where O Where...

The Navy is looking really good right now....

Say No To Drunk Dialing...Or Texting?

Well, Jessica's debut was this past Friday. Happy birthday Jessica!!!!!! That was an interesting night, to say the least. Yea. Lets just not talk about it. NEXT

B left this morning leaving the children with us for a couple of months. It was good seeing him and the babies and his wife after a little more than a year. I didn't really get to spend much time with him while he was here given school and work and the parties, but it was nice knowing he would be at my house when I got home from wherever I was.

The babies are the sunshine's of my life right now. I cannot even express how much I love them.

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours. 

I am thankful for all the good in my life.

My family.

My friends (the best)

Having a job during this hard economic time

The luxury of living in a free country

And anything else. 

Happy 4th birthday to my baby girl!

Never Felt A Pain Like This

My back is k-i-l-l-i-n-g me! I have never had back pains like this. And it is God awful if you don't know. I feel like i'm complaining like Jenna and her preggo self. I'm not pregnant, but I can only imagine what my back pain will be like when I get pregnant (which will be many many years from now). My wrist hurts a lot. I should wear my brace, but lets be real. My right ankle kills me as well. All the pain seems to be at the right of my body. Inconvinient because, well, everything I do is with my right side. Soooo, we'll see how this goes.

And to top this whole pain up, my effing computer is being a piece. Both of my laptops refuse to run normally. It all started yesterday when I wanted to finish watching Soldier's Girl after I came home from yogurtland with Rene. I lay down in my bed open my computer and bam. Nothing is working properly. My internet won't connect, no DVD's will play, everything will freexze when I try to problem solve it and shit. UGH! Kill me. Thank God B comes home tomorrow that way he can fix it. He is a world class computer fixer. So hopefully i'll be able to finish watching Soldier's Girl soon. Don't judge my movie. Eddie suggested it to me as a good indie movie. It just so happens that it is a gay movie. But from what I have seen so far, it is really good. Awkward moments for sure, but other than that it has a good story.

My back is really killing me. I've been laying down with a heated blanket on my back for the past 2 hours. And now i'm sitting here in the living room on the family computer cause none of mine want to work. I'm going to go back to laying down and being miserable. Hope your Saturday night is delightful.

Baby, It's Cold Outside

I wish it really was cold outside. I'ts weird when we are able, in the middle of November, enjoy a cup of frozen yogurt and it not be that cold outside. Being someone that loves the heat of summer and the sun, I really wish it was cold. I miss those cold morning when I was basically required to wear layers and layers of clothes in order to keep my already low body temperature up. Weird, isn't it. Is it really too much to ask for some winter weather in the middle of November? Apparently, it is.

My brother and the kids are already on their trek to California. The holidays are here! I have never been more excited to see my brother. It's been more than a year since I have seen him and the babies and I missed them so so much. Sunday evening when I get back home from debut practice will be such a happy day. I cannot wait!!!!!

I was thinking earlier about Thanksgiving, It is here fo sho. I just feel really weird about it. I work Thanksgiving day (close) which I don't really mind cause it's with Joy Joy and April. I'm kinda bummed that I won't be able to spend much of the day with my family. I'm really not one for family time, but the last time I can remember having a Thanksgiving dinner with all of my sibilings is so far away. It was probably when B was still in high school and that was almost 9 years ago. Seeing him is going to make my year. And the babies staying with us for about 5 months will be the icing on the cake.

Where The Sun Always Shines

I want to give a special shout out to Hulu.com, Rene, and my everlasting supply of procrastination for bringing "It's Always Sunny In Philedlphia" into my life. Now I will for sure never get anything done. Thank You.

P.S. I have never laughed so hard at a t.v. show as I do when I watch this show. I don't even laugh this much at The Office and we all know how much I love my Offce. Check this show out. Totally inappropriate, but totally my taste.

Can't Be Mine

Why are they so hot?

In otherr news, I don't know. I'm actually in a school mood as opposed to last

week when I went to 2 classes total all week. So, I don't know. I'm really confuesd

and kinda bummed about one situation and I don't know what

to make of the other. RorN? Maybe neither! I don't need to worry about this.

Whatever happens happens right?

My Love

do you love it? cause i love it =]

Fiyyyaaa

Prayers go out to all those that have lost anything this past week.

It's been a tough week.

For others mostly.

Live high.

You're Impossible

It's been awhile. Lets review shall we?

• Madonna: Justin Timberlake&Britney Spears. Amazing!
• I baked a cake for the first time in my life that didn't come out the way I wanted it to. But it's ok, it was just for Rene.
• I LOOOVVVEEE the weather
• San Diego monday to see my lovebug. I miss her.

Yea. That's all I can think of right now. Pictures from Madge later.

ByeBye

Let's Recap

1. Barack Obama is our new President! High Five!

2. I just want to say to everyone that is moving to Mexico, Canad,a or any where in Europe, good luck. Most of these countries cannot compare to America. Obama JUST took office. Stop being so narrow minded and look into the future. I mean, look at our country right now. Obama's win brought together a country that has been divided, and is still divided, but not so much anymore. All we can do, Obama lover or hater, is support the man Americans chose as our new President. If you don't believe in this, well, have fun in those other countries. I'm sure you will have a lot of fun not having the rights we have here. Just because Obama is our President does not mean we will be going down the crapper. If you don't recall, Bush put us in the crapper. The only place we can go now if forward. Hope. Progress. YES WE CAN!

3. In case you missed it (He has amazing speech writers!)

update:

Prop. 8 passed. I thought California was better than that.

Madonna fo shizzz tomorrow night. Got my shift covered.

Gabe (the guy taking my shift) sounded hot (if thats even possible).

YES WE CAN

I can officially say America has the coolest President.

My man, Barack Obama, is now our new presidente!

I am in just complete awe. I love it! I cannot even explain my emotions, what is going through my head, or anything. His speech was amazing and inspiring.

As I sat there, everything seemed to just fall into place in ways that I cannot even explain. I am in love with America right now. I really am speechless right now.

Obama fo' yo mama!

If You're Out There

Get out and vote! I did!

Now it's time to sit&wait to see who the new presidente will be. Obama? McCain?

Let's All Get Written Up Shall We?

So, i'm getting written up along with all the leads, my boo Nik, and Jovani (no suprise.) I was for sure expecting it. I mean, getting to work 3 hours late, you can only expect the worse. But whatever, it was well worth it. If I had the chance to go back and change what happened, I wouldn't. Haha.

I almost passed out in the library today cause I didnt have anything to eat. So I decided it would just be a better idea for me to just take a nap. And now I feel much better but I do not want to go to my next class, Cultural Anthropology. I hate that class with a passion.

I picked up the practice test for the placement test for my math class today and it made me realized that, well, I am definately no good in math nor do i remember anything that I learned 3 years ago in high school. Great Success!!!! So now I need to study for a placement test so that I don't get placed in a dumb ass class. Perfect.

I'm kinda hungry and craving a real meal. Like a meal with the works, whatever that happens to be. A burrito sounds nice. But I need to wait until class is over. Perfect. I am not going to be a happy camper in that class.

Ugh.....i'm really tired and irritated and kinda light headed. Good combination no?

In Case You Missed It!

N.E.R.D




Craig from The Office

SPAAAZZZZZ if you want to

So, today was actually amazing!

1. N.E.R.D!!!! I touched Pharrell and he totally made eye contact with me. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMGGGG!!!!! I almost got pulled up on stage...so close!!!

2. Craig Robinson (a.k.a. Daryl from The Office) He just HAPPENED to be on the show tonight. He was amazingly funny AND he sang the Dunder-Mifflin Ad song!! Amaazzzing!

That about sums up my day. Probably will get written up for being hella late to work, but it was wellllll worth it!!!

I LOVE PHARRELL!!!!!

(and that other boy ;])

Sexy Can I?

1. I've been bitten. By the lovebug again.

2. That was really gay

3. Need I say more?!

4. N.E.R.D tomorrow on Jimmy Kimmel!

(shout out to Jenna for being bombies and letting me go to work late :D)

(love ya girl! and you Silas!)

Omg. These Elections Are Taking Over The World

In a good way of course. Everytime I get online, there is a new video that has to do with the elections. Get out and vote!

Obama on the left
McCain on the right
We can talk politics all night
And you can vote however you like
You can vote however you like, yeah

Democratic left
Republican right
November 4th we decide
And you can vote however you like
You can vote however you like, yeah

(McCain supporters)
McCain is the man
Fought for us in Vietnam
You know if anyone can
Help our country he can
Taxes droppin low
Dont you know oils gonna flow
Drill it low
I'll show our economy will grow

McCain's the best candidate
With Palin as his running mate
They'll fight for gun rights, pro life,
The conservative right
Our future is bright
Better economy in site
And all the world will feel our military might

(Obama supporters)
But McCain and Bush are real close right
They vote alike and keep it tight
Obama's new, he's younger too
The Middle Class he will help you
He'll bring a change, he's got the brains
McCain and Bush are just the same
You are to blame, Iraq's a shame
Four more years would be insane

Lower your Taxes - you know Obama Won't
PROTECT THE LOWER CLASS - You know McCain won't!
Have enough experience - you know that they don't
STOP GLOBAL WARMING - you know that you won't

I want Obama
FORGET OBAMA
Stick with McCain and you're going to have some drama
We need it
HE'LL BRING IT
He'll be it
YOU'LL SEE IT
We'll do it
GET TO IT
Let's move it
DO IT!

Obama on the left
McCain on the right
We can talk politics all night
And you can vote however you like
You can vote however you like, yeah

Democratic left
Republican right
November 4th we decide
And you can vote however you like, I said
You can vote however you like, yeah

I'm talking big pipe lines, and low gas prices
Below $2.00 that would be nice

But to do it right we gotta start today
Finding renewable ways that are here to stay

I want Obama
FORGET OBAMA,
Stick wit McCain you gone have some drama
MORE WAR IN IRAQ
Iran he will attack
CAN'T BRING OUR TROOPS BACK
We gotta vote Barack!

Obama on the left
McCain on the right
We can talk politics all night
And you can vote however you like, I said
You can vote however you like, yeah

Democratic left
Republican right
November 4th we decide
And you can vote however you like, I said
You can vote however you like, yeah

PERRRFFFFFF!!!!

I lost my ATM card.

Perfff!

It's ok though. Usually, I would be hella mad and angry

at the world for letting such a tragedy hit my life.

But whatever. I'm ok with it.

Vote or Die

Just do it!

So It Begins

After a day of one class, missing my second class after successfully finishing my homework and sitting inf front of the toilet, this is what it feels like.

This poor little girl. I feel your pain. I really don't know what it up with my body.

But I don't appreciate it. That's for sure.

I haven't been really sick in a long time. But today, I am.

And now I need to go to work and work for almost 5 hours

because even if I did want to call out, I doubt anyof those effers

would take my shift. -___-

Story of my life.

Kristy and I are still not talking and I don't know how llong this will go on.

It's sad to say the least. I miss her "tety" and "you're my favorite"s.

Sickly Sara.

p.s. John Legend's Evolver came out today. =]

Get it Boo

What Joy Thinks Of Me

Oct 28, 2008 12:58 PM
Subject: Borrego...Prop 8
" I think borrego pulled out all the "yes on prop 8" signs down Valley View.


Anyways everyone should destroy those signs, so do your part!!!!
















a message brought to you by me.


vote no on prop 8"

How I love Joy. VOTE NO ON PROP. 8! Don't take away peoples rights.

p.s. if I had time, and there was no penalty, I probably would rip down all those signs.

H8ers! Prop. H8te! Vot NO NO NO NO NO!!! I want my gay best friends/ lesbian best friends to have the same right to get married as I do.

I Love It

Saaaan Diego

So I came down to San Diego yesterday to see Nikki cause I hadn't see her in ages. And yea, I missed her. Don't judge me. We went to Target for a long time. Then we went to the area in downtown know as Gaslamp. If you ask me, seems like somewhere there would be whorehouses and stuff. Shady. But it's just the "hip" part of town. Lots of college students and lots of military boys. We went to Bucca's for din din and we came back to the dorm cause we were both tired.  from driving, Nikki from....I don't really know. It was a nice visit to say the least. 

The news came yesterday that......IT'S A BOOOOYYYYY! Yenna and Matt Fell are having a baby boy! I would put a picture up, but i'm not very macbook savvy so yea. But congratulations to the mommmy and daddyyyy! You guys get a high five!!!!!!!!!!

So nothing much else. Nikk's still asleep and  need to go to the bathroom but i'm shy and don't want to walk out into the hallways and have all those girls look at me like "who is she?" And I should be leaving soon. 3 at the latest. I have a birthday party to go to later and work -_- story of my life. 

I'll post pictures later. byeeeee.

In The Words Of Perezzers...

Slutty Cyrus made a fool of herself on Ryan Seacrest today. Dumb. Ryan Seacrest Read "Twilight" to his listeners. And my morning has revolved around Ryan Seacrest. http://www.kiisfm.com/cc-common/mediaplayer/player.html?redir=yes&mps=ryan.php&mid=http://a1135.g.akamai.net/f/1135/24935/1h/cchannel.download.akamai.com/24935/842/richmedia/MILEYCYRUS102308.mp3?CCOMRRMID=20977568&CPROG=RICHMEDIA&MARKET=LOSANGELES-CA&NG_FORMAT=chrrhythmic&NG_ID=kiis102fm&OR_NEWSFORMAT=chr&OWNER=842&SERVER_NAME=www.kiisfm.com&SITE_ID=842&STATION_ID=KIIS-FM&TRACK=Miley#

What a slut! She is dumb. O Miley. I hope you enjoy this.



So, i've had papers galore to write and test and school is just taking over my life. This is the most overwhelmed I have ever been since i've been in school! Not once in high school or in the past 2 years of college have I been so stressed. Dumb.

I like this picture. Because Starbucks screws me over. I just noticed that I never got the raise I was supposed to get after my review... IN SEPTEMBER. I'm not happy to say the least -_- So now I have to go through talking with Sarah and whatnot so I can get my raise and stuff. Unfair.

Let Down

So, Jesse McCartney was a bust. But it's all good. I got the night off, so whatev.

I have so much school work to do for the next couple of days yet I still find myself un-motivated and not wanting to do it. I'm so restless and just want to sleep. But I continue to do what I need to do. I need to get out of here!!!!

Hopefully you are capable of doing your school work. Good luck.

Do me a favor, Vote No on Prop. 8. Equal rights for all. If you vote yes, I will find you and slice your head off. I'm dead serious about that too.

Let It Rain

Totally Checking him out tonight. Don't be jealous.

I probably shouldn't go being that I have 3 papers to write and a test tomorrow. O well. I'd rather walk it out with this little boy. Ahahaahahahahaaa!

Happiness Is A Warm Gun

So this is what happiness feels like.

These past couple of weeks have been very emotional. Not just these past couple of weeks, but these last couple of years. Everythingin my life seemed to be crashing down on me and there was no way to make it stop. Things in my world kept caving in and there was no way I could stop it. I tried to stay positive, but failed each time and reminded of how awful things were. All that changed during these past 2 weeks.

Nikki and I are like BFF's like no other pair of BFF's. Our relationship is indescribable. We may not have been obvious to everyone, but we had been fighting this whole year. Last weekend, we finally cleared that up. I got everything off my chest and it felt good. She told me to clear everything that had hurt me or made me mad in my life so I could finally be happy. She was the first step. This past week, I had been doing different things. I've been happier, but I knew I could be happier than I was.

Today, I went to talk to Albert. It was an emotional talk, but it needed to be done. There was no more avaoiding it. I was tired of it. So we finally talked and I put everything out on the table. And, I survived. It was hard thouugh (thats what she said) and hella scary. I was nervous, scared, and about to shit my pants honestly. But after it was all said and done, I still felt like crap. I started driving away and headed to Starbs to visit Jenna and talk to her. Halfway thereNikki had texted me asking how I felt after and thats when I realized, Damn I feel really good. And after sucha a talk, that is basically all you can feel. I got everything off my chest, cleared everything up, let my feelings show, talked, and showed emotion in front of Albert. That is something I have never done. And I am still in shock that I did it. It's amazing, simply amazing how much I have grown in a couple of weeks. I guess your twenties open your eyes.

Well that's all the happenings of today. I looked at potential schools to transfer to yesterday. It was a weird feeling honestly. I'm looking at schools up north- Nor Cal. What Up ??? I don't know the area codes, so we'll just wait til I decide for the shout out to my new area code ;)

Be Happy :)

Day's Off Are Rare

Today was my first day off of everything in a long time. No school and no work today. A glorious morning it was.

1. I got to sleep in until 10. For all you other folk out there that get to sleep in on the daily, this is really late for me. But it was the most glorious morning ever because I knew I had no where to be today. It was a nice feeling.

2. It was pay-day. Need I say more.

So I went and picked up my check and headed to the mall. We all know I am not one to just go shopping and waste my money. I needed foundation cause mine was pretty much out. So I debated whether to order it online or just go and get it right away. I went to the mall and remembered that I had a Macy's gift card, so I went to Macy's to check if they had MAC. This is where the fun starts.

I'm walking around the cosmetics department and I see Clinique, Dior, etc etc. Urban Decay, but no MAC. So I am about to head for the door and one of those other counters has people launching a new make-up line. Benefit San Francisco. Well, the artist that approached me was a boy, and of course, gay. We know how I feel about gay boys. So when he offered to put make-up on me, my heart skipped a beat. I was really happy! So he put make-up on me and he was talking about the benefits of that make-up and how MAC is bad for your skin. His name was Wes by the way. Well, I decided to just buy that make-up cause it felt really good on me. So I left Macy's spending 50-something dollars. Thanks Wes. I want him to be my new BFF.

So after that, I had lunch with Jack Torr and we talked over lunch. We went to H&M and Forever. There was this REALLY cute dress at Forever that I wanted to buy so badly, but I have no where to go to wear it to =[ But no more spending for me. Jack Torr baked today so I got some brownies from her and then I headed home.

While drivign around today, I saw countless McCain/Palin stickers on cars. And everytime I saw one, I would scream inside. And also those Yes on Prop. 8 stickers and signs make me sooo angry. I have been getting very political these past coupke of days and we all know I am not the type to get political or care about politics. Jack and I were talking about how McCain makes us mad and I decided that I should wear my Obama shirts everyday. O and when I was at the mall in Beachworks, these guys came in and were looking for Obama shirts. They said that they might as well buy the shirts cause he is gonna win. Amen.

Ihope you enjoy this as much as I did =]

In Case You Missed It

It's an hour and a half worth of sitting in front of your computer. But if you have the time, feel free to watch. Honestly, McCain told me nothing. He just bashed on Obama's plans the whole time. Dumb.

So yesterday I was on Perezhilton.com (of course) and there was an entry labeled "How Ignorant!" and it was a video so I decided to watch it. It may seem kinda weird that I get a lot of my political news from Perezers, but at least I get it. Well anyways, it was a video from a rally in Ohio that was for Sarah Palin. We all know how I feel about her. Well, the news cast that was reporting was Al-Jazeera. It goes on about basically how ignorant and stupid people can be! It made me sooo mad. There was a woman that said "Obama is black. If he wins, the blacks are going to take over." REALLLY?!?!?!?!!!!!!! And then another man said n*gger when referring to Obama. They called him a terrorist and everything all based on his skin color and his religiously refrenced name. It just goes to show how ignorant and dumb people are and how much our country has NOT grown since the Civil Rights movement. You need to check this out for yourself :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRqcfqiXCX0 I hope you are as P.O.'d about this as I am.

Anyways, now to my life. I closed with Yenna and April last night. Milk exploded in Aprils face. I laughed a lot. Tonie came to visit Yenna and it was an all around good night even though I wasn't feeling good. My man was there all night. And my best friend Joy came too! (Hi joy! :D) Nothing great really. O so I ended up not writing my paper for my anthro class. Haha. Story of my life. But my teacher gave those who did not turn in the paper on time an option of turning in up until next Wednesday. I will only be marked down a letter grade. So my paper needs to be an A paper in order to get a B. So thats good in some sense.

I didn't go to class today (obviously) because I woke up at 7:45. I thought about going late but voted against it cause the oppurtunity cost was low. Dumb, i'm using economics. So i'm sitting here writing this blog debating on what to do until 12:30 when my next class starts. I don't want to stay home.

Yenna gets her ultrasound today!!!!!! Yay for baby Fell! (Pharella Chris Brown Fell)

Obama!

See more Hayden Panettiere videos at Funny or Die

I did't even know she was funny

People Usually Drive Through Drive-Thrus, Not Walk

Call me crazy, but the last time I checked, walking through the drive-thru at Jack in the Box is not good. It's not even really that safe. What was that crazy mexican man thinking?! I could have easily ran him over. And I was actually really pissed because he just decided to walk up to the window right in front of my car! It was my turn to get my order and BAM! A mexican appears and gets a smoothie. I was not happy to say the least.

Today was the realease/announcements of some great things.
1. The new MacBook was introduced. According to Perezhilton.com, they are actually onsale today, Oct. 15. They are a tad bit more expensive than the previous MacBooks but i'm sure it is well worth it. There's all new technology and what not. Maybe i'll eventually get on for realisies this time.

2. Indiana Jones came out on DVD. Even though the thought of this movie makes me think of Rene, I love love love looovvveee this move. I'm not much of an Indiana Jones fan honestly. I don't really recall watching any of the other movies but I loved this movie. And to make it better, Shia LaBeouf is in it. Sexxyyyy.

Well, I still have not started my paper. And I am really thinking about not doing it. But I must.

Tonight I worked with Alex and Matt. It was nice. Matt took one of those 5 hour energy drinks you see on t.v. He was crazy. Uncontrolable almost. It was funny to say the least. My bootime came in and....he shaved his beard!!! I know this sounds super lame that I am talking about him, but whatever. Anyways, he looked way different but still cute ;) I called Michelle cause I was shy and needed to do something while I was on my ten. So then he left. And I was sad until this really hot guy came through drive and Matt (aka Skittles) and I fought over whether we thought the guy was gay or straight. I think straight. But you never know. So I am going to get under the blankets cause it's hella cold. I'll probably just wake up early and write my paper in the morning. Peace.

R.I.P

Tonies old camera and my bank account :'( You will be missed.

I bought Tonie a new camera with my birthday money. I am secretly hoping she says "O mija, you didn't have to. You can keep the camera you bought cause it's your birthday money." But I really doubt she will say that. But one can wish!

All my money went to that camera and paying lots of bills. Ok well just my credit card bills. I am learning that when I got credit cards, I should have been more responsible paying them. Mhmm I learned the hard way. And with our crappy economy at hand, I will probably never pay off my cards until I am 65 years old. Thank you Premier Bush. -__-

I am still putting my paper aside. I am going to clean my room, my car and take a nap before work. No, I am not going to start my paper. I will start that after I get out of the shower after work. By that time, I know I will be hella tired, but I will for sure get it done. Story of my lifffeeee!

Kanyeezy Fo Sheezzy

Late last night, Nikki texted me and told me about Kanye at the Jimmy Kimmel show that is being taped tonight. Sad or what. I always work. But anyways, she was gonna go, But from the looks of it, and from what she told me, she isn't going anymore. Bummer. Thats a pretty big deal watching Kanye West perform. Even though it would boost his ego even more. Don't get me wrong, his musi is great but he is a little too big headed for me. But I guess, whatever it takes to make great music? O Kanye.





Well I went to class this morning on time. For once in my life I was on time for my econ class. I am rarely ever on time for that class. Well, it was a really really exceptionally boring class today. freaking lady was not prepared for class. She didn't have a powerpoint for this chapter so she was basically reading the book to us. I mean, i'm usually ok with that but she does not know how to teach without her powerpoints. So I texted Michelle during the whole class. We talked about her HGOTY (haha) and about GG (greek god, thats what michelle calls him, ahahaha freaking michelle). It was for sure a very entertaining conversation. I love talking to Michelle. She is one of the funniest people I know. And I know you read my blog Yenna and Joy. So I hope you keep my secret. Cause i'm shy.





So now i'm sitting here in Starbucks by school. And well, Juliana Ramirez is in here but she hasn't said hi to me. But she just did so nevermind that. I'm trying to start a paper that is due tomorrow morning. I've read the story thats about it. Now I need to fill in a freaking worksheet but I don't know if I want to do that right now. So i'm sitting here with nothing to do basically. I need to go to the bank and whatnot but I dont feel like getting up. I need to pee too. And my battery is going to die soon. Maybe i'll just go home for a bit. Nahhh too much of a time and gas waster. But it is seeming like the best option right now.

I should totally do this. This is probably from postsecrets.

Magic, Witchcraft, and Religion

This class always gets the best of me. Always. Well, we finished The Serpent and the Rainbow. It was actually a pretty decent movie. Then we went onto lecture. I was shopping online for boots instead thouh. Haha I would. I was shopping and on Facebook while the rest of my class was learning about souls.

I drove home and I was pretty hungry on the way. I eventually decided just to go home and not get any food. So I got home and I knockedout. I woke up and it was already 3:05 and I was supposed to be at Pius at 3 to pick up the children. But I made it in time before they were shipped off to daycare. I was not feeling good at all. I felt light-headed, my stomach hurt, my head hurt. It was awful. So we came back home and I knocked out once again.

I woke up and America's Next Top Model was stilll on. Since like 12:30 in the afternoon. I woke up like at 5:30. Doesn't MTV ever get tired of showing re-runs of ANTM? I mean, everyone and their mothers have seen every episode of every cycle of that damn show.

I got some time to watch TV today, as you can tell. Well when ANTM was finally over, Paris Hiltons new show about the search for a new BFF came on. And it was a train wreck that I couldn't help watch. Really Paris Hilton?! How can you truly expect to find a BFF through a TV reality show?! It is for pure entertainment clearly. It was really dumb. I couldn't watch it anymore. So I channel surfed for 1 channel and came upon "the Smart Guy" on BET. I used to looovvveee that show!!! It brings back those feel good times of my childhood. OMG, that was gross. It feels weird when I say stuff like that.

That's all the happenings for today. I need to write a paper. So i'm going to start on that. I probably won't finish until an hour before it's due on wednesday but thats cool. I always pass with flying colors on all my papers. Thanks Rosary for an awesome English department that taught me good ;)

Bye bye.

And The Beat Goes On...

Today was a productive day. I should really get to sleep so i'll just make a list.
-Nikki and I talked today. And I am pretty sure after pretty much a whole year of fighting, we are actually officially done fighting. We have both said what we needed to say and it feels good to not be fighting. Its feels really really good to have my best friend back. I know I never really lost her, but it just feels good.
-Debut Practice. Ehhh, what is there really to say about that? That game we played today was dumb and I hated it. Mostly because there was so much physical activity involved. But thank you Jess and company for the pies for my birthday :)
-Dinner with the Woo family. I hate these dinners. But I got some gifts which is always nice. $200 from the g-ma Woo, $25 gift card to macy's from unc paul and tonie and the kids bought me a couple of pairs a jeans and some shirts. So it was nice.
-I feel really good right now.
-I'm pretty beat though.
-I do not want to work ever again.
-Especially at 415 in the morning.
-I love my best friend.
thats it. bye bye.

Feel Good Inc.

I have been having like 2 weeks of feeling good. And it all came to a halt today. I don't feel like speaking much, but here is a quick summary:
-I got into a texting fight with my best friend
-I came close to tears when I woke up this morning.
-Lunch with Albert
-Nap
-Work -_________________-

So now I am here waiting to see if Nikki really will come spend the night. I'm thinking it's a no but she said she would come. We'll see. I'm tired of work. Really tired of it. And this whole closing on saturday nights is not going to flow well with me. At all. I'm actually really mad about it. Furious. It makes me want to quit.

Well, i'm probably gonna knock the eff out now. Peace.

As Much

As much as I do not want to let this bother me, it does. I mean, it is my birthday. Not getting a call, text, or anything from your best friend does hurt. And for sure I am hurt. I haven't said much about it all day because I have been trying my best to be patient. But so far, nothing has come along. And it really does hurt my heart. But then, I take a step back and am thankful that Jack Torr and Scar spent the day with me. 

Scar, Miche Gualt, Jack Torr, Yenna spent the day with me. I walked for fitness this morning much to my dismay. I did not want to walk that hill of death. And today was the first time I walked alone cause Yenna was too pregnant to walk the hill -_- But it was nice. Then I came home. Waited for the others to arrive. Ate some cake, a cookie cake, more cake, and cookies all made for me ;] Then we headed to the Getty Center for a bit. I realized that I am in no way a museum person. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate art and the beauty of it. But museums are not for me. Well, we then sat in like an hour of LA traffic in order to get to Olvera Street. I kinda secretly love it there. It's so mexican, it's great! We had din din there and a mariachi sang to me [thanks jack torr]. We finally came home cause we were HELLA tired. 

We got home and everyone talked to Tonie for a while. Then when I went to my room, I saw all these balloons in my room. Kristy, Nate, and Tonie all put balloons in my room. Too cute or what? Apparently, Kristy planned the whole thing. What a cutie. 

So now I am here in bed. Tired as fuhhhhh. And abbout to knock out. Thank you to everyone that wished me a happy birthday: all the calls, texts, and whatever othere way it was wished. Welcome to the twenties.

Well

It's official. I'm 20. Strange strange feeling.

Borrego marked as 20. That's me.

I just called myself an animal.

I missed the office!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye Bye.

My Last Day As A Teenager

Wellll, I am almost 20. Not a teenager anymore. So weird on so many levels. But i'm excited for what my twenties will have in store for me. :)

Today I went to my econ class and we got our test back. I thought I for sure bombed that test. Turned out I got an A! Sweeeetttt! I was happy about that. After that class, I usually do not like going home cause I will get nothing done. So as I left the school parking lot, I decided to go tot eh beach. Thats right. I haven't been to the beach in ages. It felt so good to be back there. Got me some Secret Spot. It definately hit the spot in my tummy. I sat on the beach and read The Alchemist some more and thought about things for a bit. Then I left cause, believe it or not, it was cold at the beach.

I came back and went to the BP mall. Don't judge me. I ended up buying nothing. Story of my life. But, I went into Claire's and I was like maybe I should buy some earrings. So as I was in there, I was on the phone with Scar. Well this old g-pa and his spoiled granddaughter were in there and he kept INSISTING to talk to me. Clearly, i'm on the phone. so he kept making remarks to the cashier about how I was on the phone. It was kinda funny, kinda aggrevating. His g-daughter was cute. Spoiled, but cute.

I went to my logic class after the mall and we are watching a movie about Enron. I don't really care. I didn't pay attention at all. After class, I came home and knocked out. I was tired.

So I woke up and talked to Mich Gualt. Our conversations are always funny. Always. Haha. We talked about boys all day and how ridiculous we are. And we decided we are the Mexican and Filipino version of Rob and Big.

So, now I am going to go shopping for clothes cause I am too lazy to do laundry before tomorrow and quiet frankly, I just want new clothes. My birthday's tomorrow. Weeiiirdddd.

Bye bye.

April Showers

April showers bring lots of laughter. Thats for darn sure. Freaking April. That's all I can say. She is a crazy lady and the next month of closing with her on wednesdays will be well worth the wait.

Today was nothing special. But it was a unique day and I am thankful for that. I read more of The Alchemist. God I love that book.

In my anthro class, we are watching this movie about zombies or something of the sort. I wasn't paying attention to the movie but I was people watching in my class. And I realized, every single person in my class is weird. Like those weird nerdy geeky kids in middle school and high school. And once I came to that conclusion while still in class, I kinda freaked out inside. Haha.

I didn't really do much of anything today now that I think about it. But it felt really nice.

Well, in less than 24 hours, I will be 20 years young. This is my last day as a teenager. What can I do to make it special? No clue. O wellll.

Friday, Mich Gualt and Jack Torr are going to with me for my birthday in LA. All I really want to do in LA is go to Amoeba. But we'll see where the wind blows us. Happy Thursday morning!
Bye Bye

Update scmupdate

1. Ashley the whore is getting fired.
2. I like a boy.
3. I am just happy!
4. Still haven't gotten my saturday shift covered, but its still early in the week. Hopefully I get it covered. If not, the tattoo will be done on Sunday before debut practice ;)
5. My thighs are killllliing me. like killing. i can't squat or bend over (thats what she said)

It Is Freaking Hot!

If the weather is like this on Friday, I will for sure be spending my birthday at the beach! Cross you're fingers!

Well today I had my econ test. Don't think I did that great on it. What can you do? After I went to Starbs and started my logic homework. Scar called and we caught up on life then I went over to her house cause she's a lame-o and doesn't go to school. We played Rockband 2 for about 2 hours. It was nice. I went to school for my logic class. Blah blah blah.

Nothing really exciting happened except that it was hella hot today and I wore sweats and a sweatshirt. Not exactly the right wear for the day. O no?!

Well I came home a knocked out. I just woke up and debating on what to do before I go to work. I could watch "The Last Lecture," read "The Alchemist," or talk to tonie. I don't know which is better.

Peace

Macroeconomics

Today was a day. Nothing great. But interesting to say the least.

I went to work at 4:15 am. The usual on monday mornings. It was weird thinking "Hey, this is my last week as a teenager!" Weeeiiirdddd. Well, when I got to work, I heard the typical monday morning talk between Ering and Jennifer...Twilight this Twilight that. Really?! I am so tired of all the fuss over these books. I am really over them and I refuse, I repeat, REFUSE to ready them. Never. I don't even need to read them because of how much people talk about them.

Anyways, Irene is just the sweetest lady ever. Abuelita. She is too cute. A bit crazy, but cute. She is making me a birthday cake thursday night and I am so excited about it!!! "Her cakes are bombies! Well she just makes my morning. Yenna came in and she loooked HUGE! Huge in the sense of being pregnant. I left work, chilled at home for a minute, then went to school.

Today, I recently discovered the greatness of taking notes on your laptop. I am a very tangible person. I write things down so I can remember them better. But every monday morning, going to school right after work and writing pages and pages of notes after making billions of drinks takes a toll on my right wrist. I am already in the process of developing carpal tunnel. So note taking on the computer is the best.

Came home and knoccked the eff out. I finished The Last Lecture. I looovvveed this book. Amazing read. Very touching. I related to it so much cause of what he says about his kids living without a dad and i think of my brother and sister. This book gave me a new perspective on life and I am glad it opened my eyes. I have been very content with my life for a couple of weeks and i'm working hard for what I want. I've let go of that anger I have had for so many years. Especially towards my dad. I mean, why waste my energy on someone that can't spend energy on me? For sure it has taken me a while to learn this. And it doesn't only apply to my dad. I'm not mad or anything. I've just opened my eyes and looked at the life I have been leading. I'm more open and i will tell it like it is whether it hurts or not. This book is amazing. I definately recommend it for those bookworms.

I began studying for my Macroeconomics test. I got sooooo frustrated. It's not even funny. I sat there trying out these problems and I just got antsy and mad. So Tonie told me to go dance. So I did. I almost died. Really. Omg. Practice was the worst. I almost fell over, my thighs were giving out. I was thirsty, I was tired, and I was just done. It was weird seeing basically no one there. Literally no one. Michele, Shannon, Erin, Karee, Napua, Jessy, and thats about it. Strange strange.

So now i'm at home sitting on my bed getting ready to study hard. I really don't want to. But I need this grade.

4 days bitch!
peace

I Love No Other Way

Well yesterday I worked at 10 a.m. I closed the night before. I did NOT want to get out of bed just to go back to work. Duummmbbbb. But it was decent because Yenna and April were there and then Joy came. So it turned out to be nice.And I went home early. Sweeeettt. Then I went home, got ready and went to Kristy's show. She is too cute [don't tell her I said that]. She did an amazing job.

After I just came home cause I wasn't feeling too well. It's this crazy weather. First its like a billion degrees and then before you know it, its freezing and raining! WTF weather?! Freaking mother nature is screwing up in life. But I liked the much needed rain.

Theres not much planned for today except debut practice. Story of my life on sundays. And then I will read The Last Lecture some more/ study some more for my econ test. Nothing exciting.

5 more days til i turn the big 2-0. exciting. Still nothing planned except for saturday night. Hopefully i'll be getting my tattoo with Lynn [yennas momma]. I hope Tonie says yes.

Ughhh

So yesterday was a nice day. I got plenty if things done. We walked and watched a obesity movie. Well, obesity news broadcast. Same old stuff.

I went to pick up my check, went to WaMu. After WaMu, I went to BoA and opened a new checking account there. And I am getting a new Hello Kitty Card. I'm really excited for that.

Then I went to have lunch with Allan. I miss him! We talked about what has happened in his life. It was a sad, long, compicated story. Then I went to Barnes and got 2 new books. The Alchemist and The last Lecture. I'm really liking The Last Lecture. It's nice.

Then I went to work. And I think last night was the first time I did not like working there. I was miserable. Mostly I think because of the people I was working with. Eddie and Matt. Eddie just stresses me out cause he is a stress case. And bossy. And he explains everything he is doing. I don't need an explanantion for everything. Then Matt. He's nice. I dont really have any complaints about him.

Well, i'm really tired of working there. I don't like it. Sure it has only been a week or whatever. I don't know. Job search soon maybe? We'll see.
Peace.

A Thousand Times Over For You

I finished "The Kite Runner" today. It was such an amazing book. I really recommend it.

Yesterday was my day off. I went to class then went home and did homework/ studied all day. Nothing exciting.

Today i went to class on time for both of my classes. That's a pretty big deal. I'm a pretty big deal. Well, during my break, I spent a little time at Forest Lawn and visited Karl and Carl. I read the rest of "The Kite Runner" while I was at Carl's (my stepdads) site. Then I took the short walk over to Karl's site. He still has no head plate so I always feel uncomfortable standing at the grave that I think is his. And then I always tell myself, "it's the thought thats counts." And it's true. I could easily just have visited my stepdad and just drove off and gone to eat. Even to this day, still knowing Karl's headplate is not there, I continue to go visit him.

I've been thinkning about Karl a lot lately. More than I ever have. And I just breathe in and breathe out what was on his mind and what runs through my mind. Its very thought provoking.

So now, I have no book to read. I'm lost without having a book in my hand. Books other than my school textbooks. So tomorrow, i'm going to barnes and getting a new book. Then I will be content. And I will be having lunch with my bootime Allan. How I miss him!

I was talking about my birthday a lot today and decided that I didn't want a big celebration or anything. I'm really whatever about my birthday. 20. Nothing special. But here is a little list if you want to make my birthday special ;)
-MAC gift card
-Sephora gift card
-24 hour gym pass
-Urb gift card (Urban outfitters incase you didnt understand the abbreviation)
-A new car from Albert
- Shoes would be nice
-Some cute boots
-A new purse
-A spa day...i need it
-or money is always nice.

I'm going to find something to read now. Even though my eyes are really tired.
Peace

Thanks

Well todayI woke up late for school....again. Story of my life. But I went to class anyways. So go me! Then I came home cause I went to school looking like crap so I was going to change and whatnot. I eneded up cleaning my room. And I got my other laptop to work!

I don't really know what happened, but it decided to start working again! And I am so happy. All my pictures and whatnot where on that laptop. It for sure mde my day! So now I have 2 laptops. =]

Went to my second class, my logic class. I'm behind cause I didn't go to one class last week. It's ok though. I got it. Then I sat at Wendy's (juicy redhead haha the office) waiting for the kids to get out of school. I had to pick up Donna too along with my kid's. Headache or what. I still have a headache and they havent been in the house for a good hour. Came home and tried to nap. Didnt work.

OMG. When I picked up the kids from school, Patrick [Karl's brother] picked up Ronnie [Karl's other brother] and I saw that Patrick had a tattoo in memory of Karl. And I got really sad. REALLY REALLY sad. It hurt my heart. It was a really pretty tattoo though.

So now i'm at home waiting to go to work. I tried to take a nap before going to work cause i'll be hella tired if i don't. Well turns out I didn't nap cause my head hurt. -__-

So now I am off to work at Starbucks 6518. Secretly i'm really happy. But I don't want to say why. But lets just say, I enjoy closing ;)

So heres to a day of great successssss:
-a clean room
-a made bed
-2 working laptops
-more reading in "The Kite Runner"


p.s. I feel HELLA overweight right now. Joy and I are going on a diet on thursday.
Peace.

It's All In A Day's Work

Well, I am really going to try to write in this thing all the time. I don't really know who reads these little blogs of mine, but I will do my best to keep you entertained. 

So today was nice. I opened with Erin and Jennifer A. It's cute how they treat me like a child. Actually, I think I may be the youngest at that store. That makes me feel so special. Well Erin sang to me some song about a whale and Jennifer kept calling me 'babydoll." Then abuelita Irene came in and she is just so darn cute. I love her. She is going to make me a cake for my birthday. She's so sweet. 

After work I went home to change and freshen up before my 11 o'clock class. I left my house at 10:50. It takes 15-20 minutes to get to school. You do the math. Nonetheless, I was late. I still needed to get a parking pass but the machine next to my class would be broken and I was not up for the 5 minute walk to the next machine, so I bounced. Yup. I paid the rest of my tuition and got a parking pass for realsies so now I have no legit reason to skip class. I went back home after the 5 minutes I spent at school and knocked the eff out. I watched season one of The Office. I love that show.  Then Tonie and the kids came home from school and I knew it was time to get out of the house being that they had brought a friend over. So I went to pick up my tips and lo and behold Kristen was there. We talked and she told me to learn how to say no. she is right. Anyways, picked up my $13 of tips in quarters and dimes. (hey, at least they're not nickels) I came home and then went to Starb with Mich Gualt. She slays me.

I got some work done. Michelle on the other hand didn't get anything done I don't think. And I saw the Johnny Depp look alike that used to come to my old store! Ahhh he's too cute. And i proffesed my love of him to Michelle. Michelle got antsy so we walked to Targ and I got a comfortor for $7. It was a good deal. Came home and now I am here laying under my new comforter. It feels nice. 

So I am listening to some calming music right now and while listening, I reminisced on the past a little. What if things had gone differently, you know, the usual. But I realized, no way Jose! It all happened the way it happened because I am for one not a whore. Yup. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Friendships mostly, a little bit of family in the mix, and of course myself. And I realized, my family and myself are the only people I really need to worry about. Sure my friends are important, but there will be those times they will betray you. It is almost promised. And for sure, even family can betray you. But they are blood. I guess it's different. But anyways, I've learned [finally] that I am ready to fly. I have said that so many times I know but I have had so much time to think and so many experiences lately that I know I have grown and matured greatly. Things are not the same and I am finally ok with that. I may not like it but there is nothing in my power that I can do about it. So all I can do is worry about my life and where I am going. My journey is finally beginning. A little late, sure, but i'm on my way. My train is leaving.

Uno Dos Tres Cuatro

I'm officially old.

PB&J FOREVER!!!!!

I can't believe Jim proposed!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!

Jim proposing will probably be the higlight of my life. It will probably be better than the day my fiance proposes to me. Sad, but true.


PB&J!!!!!!

Goodbye

Tonie's camera is broken. I think I may be responsoble for that. Fuck my lifeeeee. I'm scared shitless to tell her. She already is mad at me. What's next? Am I going to burn the house down?

Sooner or Later

it all comes crashing down, crashing down when everyone's around.

It's been a really hard week. A really, really hard week.

O No!

My poor bootime! Ok, so he's not MY bootime, but still. I worry about him. Poor thing. This basically sums up the thursday night we went to Rage for Allan's birthday. Not a great start to your birthday huh?

FML?

1. For all of you that actually read my blog or keep up with my life, Tonie found out about the party. Why you ask? Well dumbass right here did'nt clean the bathroom. So now I'm in deep sheetttt. Thanks to everyone that came to my house and used my bathroom and tore it up. Thanks a lot for disrespecting my house. I should have known better and not have thrown such a big party.
2. Never make friends with lesbians and their girlfriends. When they break up, it is usually ugly. Then they will date your other lesbian friends ex. Then you will be stuck in the middle. No big deal you say? Well it kinda is cause well you're stuck between two friends. Trust is in question from both of them. You don't EVER want to take sides with either of them. They both don't like each other and they come to you with their troubles. Trying to be a good friend, you listen and be there for them. What do you get in return? A slap in the face and you lose at least one friend. It's not worth all the trouble. This pretty much goes with straight friends too. So just be warned.
3. Always go to class. Especially when the professor says "Next class we will talk about the upcoming test." There will probably be announcement of when your test will be.
4. Count your blessings, keep your head up, don't depend on others to be there always, and learn to count on yourself. Only you are there at all times for yourself. When you learn that, you become more independent and learn an important lesson.
5. All of the problems in your life always stem from yourself. Only you can change and manipulate what happens. Sure, somethings will totally catch you of guard [death, etc.], but for the most part the outcome of your life depends on you and how you live it.
6. I am learning this everyday. The more I live my life, the more I feel that it just keeps getting worse and worse. Take a step back and look at whats happening. Every outcome comes from your choices. Look at your blessings most of all. When life gets bad, we just seem to look at the bad and never seem to realize the good.
-Be thankful for your life. Your alive, so live it up.
-Be thankful for your family, especially your parents. Tonie is the greatest. My punishment could have been far worse and probably would have been for a lot of people. Tonie knows that I know what I did was wrong and that I am sorry and I don't even have to say it. And even though I rarely ever see Albert, I am thankful just to know that he is still there. I'm not without a father like my brother and sister. I got to experience my childhood with a dad and they never will.
-Be thankful for your friends. Those closest to you almost know you as well as you do. And that's a gift. They are there for you through the thick and the thin. Some may be rather recent friends and some you can trace back to 1st grade. Irregardless, they love you and you love them. Distance is nothing when you have love. Even though my bff is in Sand Diego and can no longer be with me within minutes, I know she's still in my heart and that she is there no matter what.

Gone Baby Gone

Well, Tonie leaves tonight for Las Vegas. Sin City. I opted out on this adventure, well, for many reasons.
1. I do not like being teased. Alcohol, gambling, and whatever else there is to do in Vegas for 21 year-olders is just looking at me and saying "Just one more year. HAHA!" And I'm not down for that.
2. Family Trip. Need I say more? I honestly wouldn't mind it if it were mean and my brother and sister. No big deal. But when there are 5 kids ages 13, 12, 11, 10, and 5 and a 19 year old all together, I would think that adds up to zero fun for me and a lot of babysitting. No thanks Tonie.
3. Allan's Birthday. Once again, need I say more?

Last night, we (myself, Allan, Jeremy, Roberta, Jeff, and jezzelle?) went to Rage to help Allan bring in his 20th Birthday. Little did we know the night would end in blood and tears. Ok so the tears were real, i'm not going to lie. Allan was crying and I felt soooo bad for him. As for the blood, I didn't see it but how everyone described how Jeremy got jumped, it sure sounded bloody. Long story short, Jeremy was in the emergency room last night. What a great birthday. You're boyfriend getting jumped and going to the emergency room. I'm sorry Allan. =[ But this weekend will make up for it.

Well, I need to do something other than this. So more later. Hopefully tomorrow will be fun =]!

OMG

i didnt even realize how long its been. I've been too preoccupied with missing someone that is still here that i forgot about my cousins anniversary. I'm sorry angelito. 

Angelito,

i really miss you. more than you or anyone knows. This drama in our family is bull and you know it too. Watching down on us from heaven, you must be thinking "what moron my tias and tios are!" and trust me, im thinking the same thing. Its dumb and we know it. im tired of it angelito. please help them find peace. not just for them but for our whole broken family. so that as cousins, we can all actually get along. so that i can see tias and tios without coming home and hearing my mom complain about how awful her brothers and sisters are and without them talking about her behind her back. its too much. you know our family is messed up when i dont even want to see them. ever. i love you so much and i miss you more than ever. thank you for constantly watching over me and keeping us safe. my tito, my angel, my love. i miss you. 

Today Is The Day

Sitting here in Noelle's room getting ready to leave for San Diego in a couple of hours to drop off our dearest love, Nikki. This day has come all too soon and now it is time for goodbyes.

I am so proud of Nikki for making it this far. She is an amazing person and deserves this more than anyone I know. It is a hard thing to do and let go of someone so close to me. I've done that plenty of times, sure. But in a way, I was forced to let go. I had no control over the situation at hand. This situation is different. I will still be able to see her. The only difference is that she is no longer right over the hill. I no longer have the comfort of being able to call her and her being at my house in 20 minutes because I am having a bad day and crying. Yes, she will be only 2 hours away. But 2 hours is precious time. It feels as if those 2 hours will never be free for me to drive down and visit.

I think the thing that is killing me the most right now is being here with Noelle. I know this is hard for her. I hate seeing her cry. Having her cry in my arms hurts me but I need to be there for her. She's my little sister. I love her. I can sit here and just tell Nikki "Please dont go!" but i would rather her go and be who she needs to be instead of holding her back for my own comfort. Whats up selfish?!

So many emotions are running through my mind right now that I don't know what to feel. Should I be happy and excited for her new adventure? Or should I be sad because my best friend is moving?

Ok. Bye.

okbye

okbye nikki.

cypress

can suck it.



Happy birthday Ashley Cain!!!!!!!

Goodbye Summer '08

I never thought I would be so happy for a summer to come to an end. There's a first for everything. I am so glad summer is over. I'm ready to get back in the swing of the things and just what I need to do. Fuck this summer. I'm not mad, just disappointed. But it is over now and I couldn't be happier. It has been a tough summer for sure. So goodbye to hell. It was a not a good summer. But here we go back to school, back to what I need. And I am so ready to consume myself in school. I'm ready to leave this place.

Dreams are calling.

Mexican Enough?

I finished the book. And it was amazing. I want to explore Mexico with nothing more than a backpack on my back. I'm inspired. I want to learn more about my culture and where I come from. I have always felt distant from my Mexican-ness. But not until lately, have I had the urge to find out more. Not just because of this book but even before I read the book did I have the urge to learn more about myself. 

And I told Tonie I wanted a quincenera even though I am well aged from being fifteen. But she said for my little cousins quince [in two years], I could also have a grand ball. Like a veintidos-enera? haha. And it will be in Mexico. The whole she-bang. She promised. Quiet honsetly, I am hella excited! 

Your Shit Don't Phase Me

This evening, talks with bff scar were nice and much needed. I've noticed that as just this summer has gone by, we have realized that we are adults. Strange to say and even think. Me and Scar adults?!?!?!? WTFFFFF?!?!?! We are probably one of the most childlike people on the planet. But it is amazing. We talked. And we realizde one of our biggest struggles as of late is that we don't let ourselves have fun anymore. We are too preoccupied with work and whatnot that we forget to just sit back and enjoy things. We are just so tired and tied up in the hustle and bustle of things that it's hard to do anything but sleep on our time off. As summer quickly comes to an end, I've thought about it. Sure it was an emotional time. Sure things didn't go as planned. And sure as hell it was rocky. I look back and look at all the fun times i just let go. I mean, I don't regret it, but I look and think to myself, "Why?" Why did I waste so much energy on something so little that doesn't really mean anything anymore? Why did I give up on something I wanted so badly to work out? It has all already happened. And it happened that way for a reason. Whatever though. I'm fine with it and in a way, I'm glad I took things the way I did. I've grown a lot this summer even though it came with tears and bitchiness galore. I've learned more than ever this summer that we are here for a short time. Whatever happens, happens and it happens for a reason. Just go with the flow of things, good or bad. It is all beyond your power whether you like to admit it or not. Just live peacefully and in love. That's all we can do. Goodbye summer. Even though it was one of the worst, inside of me it was one of much growth.

Lucky, Momma, and boys.

Wednesday was a great night. Hanging out with these boys is the best thing ever. I'm so thankful that they are my friends and we do what we do! And of course that girl down there. My BFF.

My 2 boo's

my girls ;]

Jeremy and nikki got downnn. WTFFFFFF?!

Gay Best Friends

It's the new in thing. I love my boys. haha

Bang Bang

Baby shot me in the heart.

I need to get away. For reasons unmentionable to anyone.

Best Iced Coffee My Ass

I finally tried the hyped up iced coffee from McDonald's and boy was i disappointed. Maybe it is because I work at Starbucks and my taste buds are aquatinted with good stuff. I don't know. But for all they hype, it was nothing. I can't even finish it. It is still sitting, full, on the coffee table. I don't think I can finish it

How I love Jon and Kate plus 8. Those kids are absolutely adorable! 

As of today

Things are finally looking up. I'm way proud of myself. Though other things are still rocky, it's ok. I haven't felt this good in so long.

Thanks God. You're the best =D

Dear Friend,

You have changed a lot. Not only do I feel this way, but so do many others. We do not appreciate it. I miss the times we used to have when we were free. Not just free in the sense of time, but free as an individual and not a couple. Things have changed, priorities are mixed with feelings. Nothing is what it should be. Soon you will leave me and be far from home. Will he still be there for you like your family and friends? Maybe he will, but how long will it last? The title is just a title and nothing more.  All I can do is sit back and watch my best friend have a boyfriend. Sit, and watch her consume her time with him while pushing others aside. Sit. That is all I can do. I've said what I've said, and I do not regret it. Maybe I am a bad friend for feeling this way. Maybe even a worse friend for saying this here. But there is no other way to say it. I can't even go shopping with you, have lunch with you because your time is with your boyfriend. Perhaps I am jealous that my other half has got another half instead of me. Perhaps I am worried. Dear friend, I will be here for you no matter what. I love you to death. Always and forever. Right now, it's just hard thinking. Did I lose my other half? No more sleepovers, no more late night talks, no more random adventures. These all go to your boyfriend now. Not only do I see the difference in your attitude, but someone else really close to you does too. We are sitting back and watching. We do not like what we see, but there is nothing that we can do about it. I hope you can take a step back and see for yourself how much you are hurting those around you. I love you more than you know and I will always be here for you through thick and thin. When things don't work out, I'll be here. When you guys get in a fight, I'll be here. Don't ever doubt that I love you because I don't like the relationship you're in. Our love is not based on that. We have a strong bond. This hurts me more than you may ever know. It has been one of the worst years ever and it just feels even worse when i seems as if I am losing my best friend, the one person I open up to the most. I hope this is not the end. I love you. More than you know. I'm sorry for hurting you in any way and that is never my intention. I will just sit back and wait. That is all I can do.

-Sara Borrego

Be Who You Want

This summer has been the worst summer ever by far. And since it has started, it has just gone downhill. Everyday just brings more and more misery into my life. And frankly, I'm tired of it. This summer, as strange as it may sound, is probably worse than the summer my cousin passed away and the summer after my stepdad passed away. And those were two consecutive summers in a row. 2008 has not been good to me like I had hoped.

I'm ususally not a negative nellie by any means. I try to find the good in things but this summer, it is so hard to find any good in all the bad that has happened/that I am feeling.

Here's a little rundown on everything that has been coming my way, in a negative way:
1. School. It's worse than you think, trust me.
2. My fucking car.
3. My FUCKING dad.
4. My friends. I'm not mad, just frustrated.
5. Work.
6. Drama that is really none of my buisness but people are dragging me into it.
7. Losing this game of life.
8. My extended family.

I'm only 19, give me a fucking break God. My short life has had more downs than most people experience in their whole life. And I'm way tired of it. I'm tired of going to be every night wishing my life wasn't as complicated and that I had the luxuries of a dad, the closeness so many people have with their families. I look around and yea, you can say I am jealous of my friends. And then
I look again, and see how so many of them take what they have for granted. You don't know how lucky you are until you lose it. And I've lost so much of it. I just want to get out of here. I want to make my own life somewhere else. Too bad everything is so fucking expensive and makes it impossible for a 19 year old to live on their own. Fuck my life.

Whenever I feel like this, I always tell myself "It could be worse." But I think this is it. I've spilled over. I've had it. I feel like i'm losing everything in life, from my dreams down to my friends. This is awful.

i am suprised

that i have not tried to kill myself. i have the worst luck. ever.

I Hate

That I let things bother me so much. Apparently, it doesn't phase the other person. But I'm learning to deal and slowly let go and let happen what I once greatly feared. It is inevitable. there is nothing I can do to change what they have decided. I'm ready. It's no more Miss nice Sara. I'm done with crying every night before bed, worrying over something that is/ was so important in my life. That "it" just does their own thing and, I mean, get over it.



Thats all I need to do. Get over it.

Best Friends

how i love their gay best friend-ness

well

1. congrats nonosina. san jose tahiti fete overall 2008 winners. well deserved. we danced for the dance, not for the prize.

2. r.i.p. paloma. i miss you terribly.

3. fml. i'm joining the navy.

4. life just keeps going down hill and i dont know how much more of it i can take.



peace

So it goes

Summer is in full swing. But it feels weird, i'm not going to lie. A lot has happened, both good and bad. But it has mostly been not nice, from my eyes at least. It just does not feel right and I do not know what to do, feel, or say. So i'm just going to leave it at that. I mean, there is really nothing I can say about what is bothering me because it has already been said. I'm not mad about it by any means. It just feels.....odd. Not right. I don't know. Maybe it's just me.

On a lighter note, congrats to the Fell's for the news on their new bundle of joy coming early 2009. I'm pretty excited for them. I mean, I've been waiting for this moment for forever! What a great way to wake up this morning. Thanks Jenna and Matt for making my day that much better.

I'm wearing my wrist brace right now and it is so hard to type. You could say I hate it. But Rene was right. I should take care of my wrists because they are pretty important and useful.

I don't know why I've been so down in the dumps lately. It's almost like a super down in the dumps type of feeling. I don't even know why i'm feeling like this and I don't know how to fix it. Honestly, I just think i'm lonely even though I am probably the farthest I have ever been from lonely. I am constantly surrounded by those that love me, especially my friends. So why am I feeling like this? I may be scared. Well, I guess I just have to let the flames burn and rise from the ashes.

Can I Kick It?

So far, in my eyes, summer has been a let down. I don't feel the summer vibe. Maybe it's the fact that i wake up at the butt crack of dawn and work. And then i just sleep all day after work. I'm tired of summer already. I want something intresting to happen. Now preferably.

Today was a not a good day. It was the worst day ever. In a long time. I hated it and I just want to go to sleep and not deal with work anymore. I hate it so much there and I just want to leave a.s.a.p. If today could have been any worse, I don't think it could have been.

I never knew I would secretly hurt this much over such a small thing.

Doctor offices are effed up. Thank you lame insurance policy for making me pay $95 to visit Dr. Bang. 

My Family

is fucked up. I just wish for once in my life, something would be normal. Today, I went to lunch and it opened my eyes even more as to why I love my mom so much. When I got home from lunch with Albert, my mom told me that my aunts and uncles are coming to talk things out over all the drama in the family. With that, I  know all the shit talking is about my mom. And I'm really tired of seeing my mom in pain because of my aunts and uncles. I love my mom so much. And I really don't care if things clear up in my family. Me, my mom, nate kristy, bubba, haydin, b, and cheree are my only family. I've got my friends and their families to act as my aunts and uncles and cousins. I'm closer to them than i will ever be with those called my "family."

Well, my aunt just got here. So here comes the real drama. 

My family is fucked up.

Nate For President

I would like to announce Nathan Woo's official beginning in the 2008 election for the presidency. 

Vote Woo.

starbucks

you are such a let down


-________-

Father's Day Schmather's Day

Yes. You can say I am a bitter bug on Father's Day. Really, no father to celebrate. The one that acted more of a father to me is with J.C. up above and the other is in the pits of West Covina. Ok, so no really the pits, but he should be. It really peeves me when my friends take their dad's for granted. You have one, cherish it.

O the things I would do to have a father-daughter relationship that so many people throw away. It pains me. The fact that my step dad has passed away hurts, but I don't think it hurt's as much as the fact that my biological fater is alive in West Covina and doesn't do as much as call every couple of months. I've tried to have that relationship with him, but it is utterly impossible. It hurts knowing that he is just ignoring me. He is able to push his past aside and live the present. Imean props for doing that, but if a part of your past is your own children, you should at least keep that part with you. There is no fucking excuse to abandon your children, even if they are full grown. It really hurts knowing that someone that used to love you a lot and always spend time with you doesn't even aknowledge you. Remembering the times with my dad are like treasure. It is something I hold close to my heart. There is nothing else I have. Not even memories with hime now. It is all gone. My mom tells me to just let him go and not talk to him. As much as he has hurt me, I totally understand, but he is still nonetheless my father.

Well, I hope you, ungrateful bitch or grateful daughter, enjoy your fathers day with the father you have.