witchcraft, bitchcraft. the same thing.

i should really start doing my anthro homework. but lets be real. ugh, i hate school. but its almost over and ive been doing really good this semester. i cant just give up now. and i wont :] and i need to write my english paper. i had 2 weeks to write it. have i even read the article i am supposed to read? nope. what a dumbshit i am. i always wait till the last minute, but that is when i do my best work. i work great under pressure.

tonie left one of the spawn with me while she took the other to piano. and they have not returned. so im stuck here until tonie returns. but i must admit, it feels nice being home. i have done nothing at all today. i watched some hannah and just did nothing. I LOVE IT!!! later, i shall go to jennas to concentrate cause we all know that the house i live at will not permit me to do homework.

man, i am sooo lazy today. i feel useless, but i love it. i think im gonna go clean my room/take a nap. after that maybe ill start my homework. i get to go to an engagment party tonight for scars sister. i cant believe shes getting married! my eyes hurt and i still have these sunglasses on even though its kinda dark in my house. well im gonna stop now cause if i dont get up and move i will sit on this couch all day doing nothing. and, i dont want that.

and i am not mad at nikki venegas for making justin take me home. and it was not an awkward ride home. just to put that out there in case nikki reads my blogs. jenna, i miss you. dont gooo! ok bye.

peace.

wellllll

its just another day. and i couldnt be happier. well not too happy. today was actually a pretty crappy day. i wated to shoot myself at work today. i always say that but really, today was the day. i HATED it! but i went home early and it was nice. and chad came by. that was nice also.

so i went to get some clothes for the funeral butt he dress i bought was too small for me wtf?! the medium doesnt fit me right and the small is to short or something. i ahte my body. for being so difficult. anyways, i just ended up wearing that dress and i wasnt feeling it. at all. the funeral was nice. it hits me everytime i go to a funeral. this time was the worse. i totally relate to the whole "my dad died" thing and the part of the slide show of raelenes dad and he kids got me. it is really hard to know that people have to go throuhg what i had to. its not fun. i teared up. thenn, as a firefighter, he got a whole ceremony thing. the flag and the whole shebang which made me think of my brother and what it would be like. and i know i shouldnt think like that but lately i have been having those "what if's?" going through my mind. the flag brought some tears back. my prayers are with raelene and her family. its tough, but they'll make it through.

i have had about 5 hours of sleep these past 2 days and its no bueno. i do not appreciate it. jenna fell is in vegas this weekend having boo time ;] and she left me her house key :D i love jenna no backpack fell. i slept at her house earlier on the couch whle watching beetlejuice. and ate her goldfish. laazzzyyy!

this week has noot been my spring break but i might as well say it was. i did so much this week as compared to my actual spring break. i went to the beach monday and thursday. i met howard thursday. ive stayed out till midnight almost everyday and i had school or work the next morning. spent most of the week with nikki. and had fun. and laughed. its been nice. i need to rest though. heres to another night of god knows what

peace

sleep through the static

lately, i cant sleep at night. im uneasy and i cant seem to shut my eyes and relax. and i hate it!!! im always way tired but i never end up going to bed until 2 or 3 am. and then i sleep until noon. and sometimes, like this morning, ill go to bed at 2 and wake up at 4 and not be able to go back to sleep. it is so annoying! ugh. i mean it is nice sleeping in until noon, but at the same time i hate it because i miss out on mornings that could be spent somewhere else like at the beach or whatnot. im always down for sleeping, but lately it is just pissing me off. everytime i sleep, i wake up either way to late or at a way inconvinient time. i know theres something on my mind that is keeping me up. and its nott the pinky promise thing [just to get that out there]. i cant sleep through the static because im scared of what will happen. i dont want to tell anyone about it cause im scared of it coming true. and i reaaalllly dont want it to come true. if it did happen, i dont know what i would do. i just hope it does not happen. and it scares me a lot. just thinking about it, ugh. i hate it. i hate the thought of it. i wish sleep was really a way of getting away from reality. too bad for me, it is not even temporary.

pinky promise?

i made various pinky promises yesterday. but i got some sweet stunnas. but i lost the chain :[

and i made a pinky promise that i dont know what will happen. but, my pinky promises are gold. worth a lot.

on the other side of things, spring break is now officially boring. i have done absolutely nothing with my life! i feel so useless. i have had the past 2 days off and i feel so useless. i feel like a bum. i hate not being busy. yesterday, i bummed around at starbucks and then did nothing. today, i attempted to clean tonies messy house. and then i sat down and studied for a long time. then i went to pick up the spawn. then off to practices and games. it was nice. then back to studying. it sounds like i did a lot of studying, but ive only read about 6 pages of the 100. lame, i know. but hey, at least im trying. as lame as this sounds, i am stoked to go back to work tomorrow. it will be nice. ill actually have something to do tomorrow!

well, i should be in bed -ed-ed being that i need to wake up at 530 but i think im gonna attempt to study some more. make use of the time that i would probably spend on myspace. useless crap? i think so.

peace.

little did i know

little did i know that more than just jenna fell read my blog. in a way, im kinda embarrassed. ok not really, but usually i just dont expect to hear about people hearing about my little brothers accidents from my blog. or as my mom would say "myspace." when my mom told me, i did not really feel like explaining to her that blogspot and myspace are different. i dont think tonie would understand. o tonie.

but its been a nice start to spring break. today, i hung out with sandra. i hadnt talked to her in a long time and it was nice seeing her. its always nice to catch up with my old friends from high school. i wouldnt call them "old" friends, i would like to call them "long lost friends." i dont think that is any better but whatever. anyways, it was nice and good. even though half the time she just sat there while i brgained for JK's sunglasses or me and JK arguing about something. but she said she had fun, so thats good. that pinky promise i made her, it is going to happen. cause my pinky promises are like gold. they are worth a lot and they are always guarenteed. i have never broken a pinky promise. and JF will be the witness. -__-

i am on my way to the park to drop off nate at practice. then off to the beach i hope. i really hope it is a nice night. since i dont have to work today or tomorrow. i really hope this week ends up really chill. and that i dont get arrested because of albert's mistakes. o papa albert, he will never be responsible. im glad i took after my mom in that category of life. in my world, i am pretty dang responsible!

well, its been a nice day. and it will be a nice night :] happy spring break for those of you who are on spiring break. if youre not, you will be soon enough ;]

so long, long hair

it was time for a change. eat your hearts out bitches ;D

imma bust yo lip, bitch!

my pooor baby!!!

at his game, before his game, nate got hit in the mouth with the ball. his teeth stabbed his lip and his cut was waaaayyyyy deep. it was great. i enjoyed watching him get stitched up [as bad as that sounds]. it was interesting to watch and sooo coool. im not saying im happy that my baby boy got hurt, but its nice that i got to watch someone getting stitched up.

i cant believe

i agreed to go clubbing. in hollywood. with my bff since preschool.


i dont club. it will be quiet the experience......

it's a beautiful day in the neighborhood

it really has been a very beautiful day. scar would call me and tell me that her first class got canceled. if i wasnt such a GREAT student, i would have totally ditched and had gone to the beach. but my good side took over and i went to class today. im pretty proud of myself. i learned a lot [not really] and i had fun [again, not really]. i have a presentation for my dance class and my group decided they wanted to do tahitian dance. i have written a bunch of papers on tahitian dancing and really im kinda tired of it. like really tired of it. but its an easy A i guess.

i have a computer. my mom, the spawn, and i went to best buy yesterday and bought not 1, but 2 computers! a lappy for me and a desktop for the rest of the family. you can only imagine how full of happiness our house was fillled with yesterday. thanks tonie, youre the best.

spent the evening with jj, aka drunky mcdrunkard and it was good fun. we walked on the beach for like an hour just talking about life and stuff. it was nice. then olive garden. that was REALLY nice. we were supposed to have our intervention last night but of course mrs. enriquez wouldnt show. but it was ok. we had a good time.

school...i finished my paper 2 minutes before i had to turn it in. and it was a damn good paper. annnnd, i totally missed an anthropology test and i emailed my teacher begging me to let me take it and by the GREATNESS of the good lord, she said yes! so everything is going pretty great :D and i love it. im happy.

well, i have to go work at kristens store now. at least i dont have to interact with customers. but it will be weird. "hi, im sara. kristen called me to come clean your store." those partners will probably not like me. i hope i dont die in the ghettos of norwalk....

peace.

Eff my life

ok no really eff my life cause I'm actually pretty happy with it right now. For a long time I wasn't happy and wished everything was better but now I'm pretty chill.I really have nothing to complain about except for the fact that I have no computer. But that will soon change. Like today.


I went to red and gold this weekend. What a crazy thing rosary girls do. Took the bff jf with me. It was interesting. Nikki was a bitch and I felt really bad for jf but I don't know. I guess nikki had a bad day or something so whatever. I'm over caring about her and shit. I spend too much time and energy caring and I just want my life the way it has been going. I'm done.

Wow I totally vented. Anyways, skipped out on a lot of partying his weekend but it was nice. Bought some sanuk's last night. Omg. When we were at the block, matts car got keyed with a heart! If I were to key someones car, I wouldnt leave a heart.

Well, that's about it. Yea. Peace beezys.