sleep through the static

lately, i cant sleep at night. im uneasy and i cant seem to shut my eyes and relax. and i hate it!!! im always way tired but i never end up going to bed until 2 or 3 am. and then i sleep until noon. and sometimes, like this morning, ill go to bed at 2 and wake up at 4 and not be able to go back to sleep. it is so annoying! ugh. i mean it is nice sleeping in until noon, but at the same time i hate it because i miss out on mornings that could be spent somewhere else like at the beach or whatnot. im always down for sleeping, but lately it is just pissing me off. everytime i sleep, i wake up either way to late or at a way inconvinient time. i know theres something on my mind that is keeping me up. and its nott the pinky promise thing [just to get that out there]. i cant sleep through the static because im scared of what will happen. i dont want to tell anyone about it cause im scared of it coming true. and i reaaalllly dont want it to come true. if it did happen, i dont know what i would do. i just hope it does not happen. and it scares me a lot. just thinking about it, ugh. i hate it. i hate the thought of it. i wish sleep was really a way of getting away from reality. too bad for me, it is not even temporary.