im gona lay some spiderman shit on youu

what a weekend


nikkis debut is FINALLY over! thank the good lord! and her whole court can finally have their life back! and im sure the rest of them, like myself, are very grateful to have our lives back.

the weekend was intresting to say the least. after discussing my situation with many people that i go to advice for, i have come to the conclusion that the events that occured friday night/saturday morning was nothing but fun. good, innocent fun. joy joy was right. and i deserve fun right? im getting over it more and more each day and i am starting not to care. and im happy with that. at first i was like "OMG" about it all the time. now, its like "o thats nice" haha but on the real, its cool. and im fine with it.


swet pea, lady bird, dream boat, pee out the window, 3 in 1 bed boo time, patron, ayres, contracts, donut man, debut, popsicles!, and more was what made this past weekend great. i loved it. im ready for some more. i dont think youre ready for this jelly!


haha peace!

embarrassed

i am so embarrassed for myself right now. wow. its almost as embarrassing as tahiti. no probably MORE embarrassing only cause i actually remember friday night.

o my life. wow. thats all i can say. it was a stressful night friday night. actually, all day friday was stressful. but at the very very end, it turned out all right. we didnt get kicked out of the hotel, and there was maaaddd boo time going on in the room even though i said there was to be no sexy time. hahaha wow im so embarrassed.

but to say the least, it was a great birthday. it wasnt my birthday but i was having the time of my life that night. i dont regret it but i am pretty embarrassed.


so, um happy birthday jenna! on friday! haha i wish both of my bff's birthdays werent on the same day. it would have made my life a whole lot easier. but no worries, we wil go to disneyland wery soon. :D

words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup

i love across the univers and jack johnson

they make me HAPPY :D

sometimes time doesnt heal

thats why i need to talk about stuff when its bothering me.


i dont know how i have time to blog today. its been a crazy day to say the least. and the money is just not adding up. i dont know what to do about that. i cant take out of the hotel money and i just dont know. ugh my life. this is so stressful.

my head hurts, my throat hurts, and my heart hurts.

im ready

to move on. im tired of this shit. i amm not one to use vulgar language a lot but, fuck this shit. im fuckin over it. i thought being a "best friend" meant you would AT LEAST let your bff know some life changing events in your life. like, i dont know, maybe that you have a boyfriend now right? or am i wrong? no im pretty sure im right. im am ready to lash out, fight someone, anyone really. preferably the person i am talking about. i mean really, i knew we didnt really talk anymore only because we were both so busy but fuck that. if this person has time to fuck around with some guy and not even bother to see how one of her best friends is doing, then fuck her. its bullshit really. tonight, im just ready to put her on blast and just lash out. i dont care if her birthdays coming up i dont care if it will affect her, im done. this has gone way to far.

jaes taylor, you are wrong. i do not have a friends her. when i call out her name, she will not come running to help me or see me. she wont even bother to ask whats wrong when clearly i have been down for like a month now. shit, i am so angry right now. it is not fun getting the inside scoop on your best friends life from other people.

if tomorrow, scar and JF are my only true BFF's, so be it. whatever. fuck her nd her man and for not even telling me. now i know what it is when we would say,"What will life be like when we arent bff's?" we always said that would never, but our future isnt promised.

peace.