all i want for christmas is you

thats what he said.

this past week has been the most tiring week of my life. and i mean my life. really. working every single freakin day is no bueno. i do not appreciate it.

but since the year is coming to a quick end, lets reminisce on some great memories. from, honestly, the greatest year in recent memory.

the beginning of '07:

-lets just say, i cant really remember it. but it was fun/funny. the year begins with nikki and the crew. it was good.

feburary '07:

-happy 17th birthday nikki. i was kinda angry at her, but rollerskating and watching her fall on her ass and being put on blast all at the same time was great.

-there had to be a couple of drunken nights in here and more memories with the people i love

-my broski left for iraq :[

march '07:

-i dont remember anything memorable from march

april '07:

-once again, nothing but these months full of nothing were probably filled with great memories :D

may '07:

-the end of my first year of college. what a joke, but a memorable first year

-the beginning of summer :D

june '07:

-selling my soul to nonosina

-tahiti in a month

-drunken nights pretty much every night. good times, good company, good vibes.

july '07:

-quit starbucks.
-nothing but the nonosina crew 24/7. and enjoyed it.

-TAHITI! the highlight of the year by far. nothing could ever top that.
-first tattoooo.

-got really wasted and made a long term choice.

Aug '07:

-back on the mainland :[

-stopped drinking, but did not stop having fun.

-the summer was spent with nikki every single day. literally

-school started

-time to get back on track

Sep '07:

-life of summer is over.

-seeing nikki everyday was not the norm anymore

-went back to starbucks.

-no life basically

-go visit the broski while he is home for r&r

-go clubbing in kansas

Oct '07:

-happy 19th birthday

-wasnt in a good modd

-of course my boo would turn that frown upside down for me by taking me to high voltage :D

-the office

-good times

-i sell my soul to nikki venegas and her debut along with 22 other people

Nov '07:

-happy thanksgiving

-ahahahahaha

-chloes birthday kickback

-being the dd for every single thing that occurs, but its all good. as long as everyone is safe :]

-bubbly haha

and finally, Dec '07:

-merry christmas

-tragus pierced

-kat von d did her world record thing

-nonstop work

-got my first pod!

-and even more good company, good times, and good vibes :D

it was a great year and i can honestly say that. i wouldnt have pictured it any other way. sure there were those down time [ahemm, not having a room for half a year, ahemm, my brother being gone, aheemm, disappointments] but in my book, the good outweigh the bad. i like looking back at the great memories.

thank you to those who have made this year so great. especially my friends whom i call family, my coworkers who are my other halves, and my family family for pouring out their love. i couldnt ask for a better year. thank you, '07, for being so great to me :D

heres to a lonely christmas eve

this is the first christmas eve that i spend alone. and it is quiet lonely. but i guess thats just how life is. sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. im cool with it though.

basically, merry christmas. spend it with those you love. especially family cause you never know when the most important people in your life will be gone. ive learned the heard way. it hasnt hit me until yesterday. now i know to appreciate all that comes my way and i really am thankful. but sometime, life just wants to be thanked more. and im ready to pour out my thanks. my family may be every where right now but in spirit, we are together.

peace, love, & borrego

applebottom jeans, boots with tha fuuurrr

its saturday. the saturday before christmas. my life. my mom is stressing me out and i dont even have kids. she should have done her shopping before instead of 3 days before the big day. she needs to set her priorities straight.

last night was fun.

you will be missed ho!

my phone

is a piece. i hope it dies a terrible death. like maybe someone can run it over with their car or something. i lost valuable memories. ok, really, they were just really funny text that i didnt want to delete. like from a couple of days ago. looking at old text makes me happy. but now, thanks to the tmobile freakin qing, i cannot not set adrift on memory bliss. thanks a lot wing. i hope you burn in hell.

on a lighter note, dinner tonight with jf, ryan, bernadette(?), and matt as our server was quiet fun if you ask me. as the night went on, i realized, ryans and matts friendship reminds me of mine and nikkis friendship: ridiculous. but in a good way. it was funny. i giggled inside. eatin good in the neighborhood was fun. never would go to applebees if i had a choice but since matt works there, ill go with jf.

i think my foot is broken. it hurts all the time. its not really broken, it is just always in pain. its from working all these freakin hours. man i hate work. and i want my nose pierced again but because i joiuned the starbucks cult, i am not allowed. poor me. i am just going on and on about my life but its ok cause its my blog. you dont need to read this if you dont want to. i love reading other peoples blogs. especially when they are funny. to me at least. haha.

2 more days till the weekend. a couple more days until jesus' birthdeezy. and a couple more days until the week that i work everyday. what a great life i live.

peace.

rollercoaster ride

it on again, then its off again. we're off. then we're on again. our relationship is a rollercoaster. mine and nikki's that is. i joke i joke. i love her even though she said she didnt have a boo yesterday but its all good cause we made up of course.

superbad is super awesome. im glad i bought it. it brings sunshine iinto my life. and i love sunshine. i remeber saying stuff along the lines of 'there should be a movie about our lives nikki.' watch superbad, and it is basically a movie about our lives. our friendship that is. both seth and evan and the cops. its an amazing movie.

and finally happy anniversary to the Fell's. 1 year strong. i would like to that the fells for letting me have their key to their apartment for the weekend. it was fun decorating. any little fells coming soon? jk[as in just kidding not jf's brother] jf and matt.

to everrything that we thought was good, its sad to see it go.

peace out bitches.

it goes a little something like this

its finally friday!!!!!

i really couldnt be happier. i am in a very good mood today. we'll all see how long that last. this morning was pretty fun. im really gonna miss opening but its ok. i gotta do what i gotta do :]


and benji, your songs about me always warm my heart. "sara borrego is tougher than an alligator." those are some deep lyrics. and i love how people at starbucks think i am so vain just because i think it would be cool if hose customized starbucks cards were capable of letting you put your own pictures on there. sure i said my face would be on there and i would give that to people. i just want all of my loved ones to remember what i look like. thats not vain

now its time to go join the christmas shopping frenzy. good luck to me.

peace


p.s. http://www.highvoltagetattoo.com kat von d's world record attempt. 12 noon today until 12 noon tomorrow. be there. i might be :]]]

speaking of blogs

JF. i am gonna do a little blog about a well know friend of mine. the one, the only. the legend, the franchis, Jenna Fell.

well jenna maureen fell.. i dont kow her whole story but i know she is a pretty amazing person. ill ltell you what i do know. shes married to matt fell. and she works at starbucks 9866 on valley view and firestone with me, sb. i call her jf she calls me sb. we are pretty much bff. her brothers name is jk and jk and matt gave me a dinosaur thing [that had nothing to do with jenna]. but i know she is a great person and i can always count on her for a laugh. or when im down. or i just need someone to laugh at my stupidity. shes the one. she understands my humor and i am glad. she has introduced me to some intresting things in life such as flight of the conchords and has enlightened me with her amazing hip hop/poetry skills.

basically, jf is amazing. why am i writing a blog about her you ask? well, we talked about how she made a livejournal today while i finished studying at starbezzy and i told her about my blog. so that is how this blog ccame about. i want to remember this day, the twelth of december the year two thousand and seven as the day i blogged about jenna fell.

on the real, its been hectic. if i can say that. ii still need to make my class schedule for next semester. and quiet possibly, search for a new job? highly doubt that though. and i need to re shop for my brother and sister cause mama got mad at me for giving the woo chitlens their christmas gift early. and bath and body works lotions make me break out in hives [so not on my xmass list]. and im tired.

but good news, i finally got my black vans :]]]

turn the whole thing upside down

my life would turn upside down. now. at the end of the semester. and there is no way on earth that i can turn it rightside up before finals next week. heres to another year at a jc when i should be able to transfer next fall.

and this whole on-again-off-again being sick thing, no bueno. i dont appreciate this god.

matt fell and his pal ryan better be very grateful that i am danicing for their project. i may not be able to breathe, biit for some reason i am always down to dance.

live the fourth [for all my kairos friends :)]

i love

my brother! im glad i got to talk to him today! it pretty much made me super happy and probably will be the highlight of the week. i miss him so. im super excited for him getting all that stuff from iraq. ive been waiting to talk to him and i did today. i would forget to get gas cause i was too caught up with my brother. hes gonna get me a hookah. i dont smoke or anything but at least i can say its from iraq. and it will be pretty cool. im excited, im not gonna lie. and hes gonna get me all the seasons of "the office" cause out in iraq, they get everything earlier than we do. i am excited about that [thats what she said]. i miss my brother so much. sometimes i forget how much. <3

i got some boots today and got my hair did. i dont know if i like it. i do but i dont. its a weird relationship with my hair.

and i got sent home from work this morning. hookers. this "dress code" thing at starbezzy is getting out of hand. since when can we not have on single white strip on our shoes? stupid. things are getting way out of hand. its ridiculous. it makes me remember why i quit working there in the first place. it sucks, thats why. i really think my manager is going on a power trip. she gather her belonging and checked into the power hotel. whore.

but on a good note, tomorrows tuesday and that brings us one day closer to the weekend <3.>

p.s. what an interesting weekend this one was....

this was not the only boo time going on

ubat

(yous be a tien)

thats just the way it is

do you ever just want to get away? away from what you have just to have room? space. thats life. what can we do about. i havent been in the mood for anyting lately. i kinda just want to stay hom but then i dont. there are so many things that keep running through my head. so many things i just want it to stop. i know there are so many blessings all around me and my family and friends are the center of my life, but. there is just a lot. i dont even know what to say. i guess i just want to go back. now that school is about to start, i am going back into the whole 'thinking about the future thing.' and i hate that. that is why i keep thinking about everything and stressing about everything and that is why i want to get away. i guess i just want a change. change of scenery, change of lifestyle, change of decisions. change. away from the normal. away from people that force me to be me [in a way]. just away.

so nobody really reads this so im just gonna let it out. in tahiti, the last night i got super drunk. wasted. and more. one person that i talked to more than i talk to here at home was wes. he has so many things to say and everything he always said was always tought provoking. so that last night i got wasted and acted a fool. the only reason i did that was that i was pissed off that night and i straight up said 'im gonna get drunk tongiht.' and i did. here on the mainland i have responsibilities and stuff that i never let loose. that is basically the main reason i let loose and had fun that last night. and i do not regret it at all. the next day i was walking down to the beach alone to look for people and wes stopped me. he said 'sara i need to talk to you.' ok. what he said was 'i want to thank you for last night for helping me realize that drinking is not my thing and im not gonna do it anymore.' i took it as 'you acted a fool, it was unattractive. i dont ever want to look like that so im not gonna drink.' thats probably not what he meant but thats how i took it. we talked for a little while and we went our seperate ways. while i was walking everything came rushing into my head. drinking. smoking. disobeying. failure. disappointment. the people that look up to me. people that i look up to. people that have gone and people that are to come. i realized the life i was living wasnt the one i wanted. i realized that the things that i did were unattractive not only because i had feelings for someone but because wes opened my eyes and helped me realize it. and its true. i now look around and see that drinking is not attractive. its not the buisness. it sucks that i saw it so late. but now i know. i am no one to judge people that are drinking or smoking or whatever and i have no intention of judging anyone.

the babies [my brother and sister and my niece and nephew] all look up to me now and will look up to me in the future. i want to be a role model. someone people will look at and say good things about. its never too late to change habits. and changing some habits is a good thing. for health, yourself, and the people you love around you.


so now. i do what i want. those things are in the past. and im happy in that sense. i dont need alcohol to have fun. never was much of a smoker, so its all good.

amen to that.

tahiti 2007

so, the tahiti trip was basically....the most amazing trip of my life. everything that happened made me realize sooo much. i miss everything about life there. and i mean everything. and i amm soooo thankful to my mom for sending me on the trip. its something that i will never forget and will repay with soo much. im so glad i got to go. i cant express how amazing it was.

-jam sessions on the beach
-bus rides
-waiting for the bus
-the nor. cal boys
-my family on the island
- dancing at to'ata was the oppurtunity of a lifetime!
-the experience at the mara'i was so deep and meaningful
-being able to drink and do whatever i wanted
-late night talks
-realizing so much about other people
-getting close to people that helped me realize things
-not knowing what time it was ever was amazing [kairos or what?]
-coming back to the room at like 5,6,7 in the morning
-listening to others
-i would say shopping, but i didnt do much of that
-tattoos
-tanning
-swimming
-random stuff
-mevina singin in his truck [ahahaha]
-hella
-just anything and everything


the most touching part of the whole trip was when we were about to go on for ahuroa. mevina gave a really touching speech that touched me. he was talking about how we should picture the people that we wanted there that couldnt be there. imagine that those people you loved were sitting in the sudience watching you. from that moment, my brother in iraq, my stepdad, my cousin, my mom, my brother and sister were all there watching me. and they were all sso proud of mee. it was so deep. you could feel the mana within everyone. it was beautiful.

ill admit i missed home and i missed my family. the first time i called my mom from the island, it hurt me. knowing she wasnt there to share such a beautiful experience with me. and my brother had called to talk to me but he missed me. knowing he is still no matter how far away he is keeps me alive. he is the reason i strive to be myself. he always knows whats best for me and what to do and i lovve him so much. but tahiti was basically another kairos. the only difference was there were people that i loved and people that i would grow to love and people i would love more as the days went on. tahiti just made me realize that everything i have is so much more than i need. all i need is my family, my friends, and the big man upstairs. other than that, everything else are wants.


it was definately a vacation that i needed. to look around and see what is good in life. to appreciate the beauty of the world. to look around and breath. no stress. nothing. content in the context of where i was.

i cant wait to go back with everyone. even though it might be another billion years. and people will change. and nothing will ever be what it was like during this trip. but knowing that this trip was the trip i was on and was lucky enough to experince it makes me happy.

haha if only tahiti was really kairos. 'we adore 24!' haha


i love you all and thanks for such an amazing experience :]]]]

its been a while

soooo its been a super long while. im gonna keep this short cause im on my wiiiiiii so yea.


tahiti in 5 days
shopping errday
constantly at nikkis [nothing new]
rainbow factory later today with noelle
i suffer from insomnia
annnd typing on a wii is hard



peace easy succkkkaaass

summer 2007!

summer is in full swing. shows, staying out super late, never coming home, joyce and nikki 24/7, parties, kickbacks, drinking, smoking. whats next? i can feel it...this summer is gonna be BOMB!

Bittersweet

it was a bittersweer goodbye this morning. my babies are gone until august. it was hard, im not gonna lie. i got super attached. especially to bubba. i'm gonna miss my little man. and haydin. and her knux filled with love. awwww. sad indeed. but i FINALLY uploaded my pictures. heres some memories to enjoy.

the tiring visit to the e.r.

my lil' man.

haydin and her high heels

bubba keeps it gangster gangster

pretty uh-oh

going commando?

birthdays and what not

now, its time to PARTY! taking advantage of the whole "home alone for the weekend"situation. again, you are all welcome.

for the few that actually waste their time reading my blog

my house. its emoty this weekend beginning saturday. which means kickbacks and whatever other nonsense will occur at my house this weekend. feel free to come. bring whoever. it would be greatly appreciated if alcohol was brought. but not necessary. call me/ text me/ whatever me for my address or whatever.

peace and love!

better luck? i think so.

so its been a super long while. and a shitload of things hae happened. lets review. the things that actually matter.
-summer school started [that doesnt really matter so you can disregard that]
-i got into an accident the second day of school. as a result, i can no longer open my drivers side door. my luck right?
-had talks with maria the beast.
- was actually home for like a whole week
-actually did my homework
-today, a really super duper generous man gave me $20 cause 'he saw me counting my pennies' in my car. i swear like im poor. please. i was in a freakin ptloser, wearing a polo. does that scream poor? i dont know.
- i got to work with becky today!!!!!
- i got to see kimmmmm! today too!
-found out that joann picks mushrooms on tamarack mountain and shes good at it.
-visited scar at work after not seeing her for centuries
-found out the lady that took over our house is leaving on monday
-sis and kids are leaving [should be leaving] next friday. along with my mom. leaving me and my little brother alone at home. which means i will find a babysitter for my brother friday night so all the alcohol in my house will go to good use [if yoknow what i mean]
- annnnnnd. bubba can almost crawl. such a big boy. literally. hes a giant. must be his samoan side.

ill put pics up later cause well, im not up for all the pictures and the videos of maria right now and trying to be all artsy crafty. yadda yadda yadda.

R.I.P.

well, its been 3 long, tiring, and differnt years. 3 years today. dang where has time gone? i never ever thought any of the anniverseries would hit me this hard. for some reason, this one has hit me the hardest. i dont know why. probably cause of all the shit i have been going through with my mom. it kinda feels like i have lost a lot of my family. never really had my dad around, today's my stepdad's anniversary, my mom and i are fighting, my brother is in iraq, the littles lead a life of their own, and school and work takeover my life. and add tahiti into the mix. it makes a perfect disaster. i dont know how to deal right now. i feel so.....useless? i dont know if thats right. more like out of place. yea. im uncomfortable at my home home, i would never ever bw able to stand being at my dads hoouse for more than a couple of hours, and i feel like a burden when i spend my life at friends houses. i gueess thats life. at work, JF and i were talking and i concluded if i had the money and stuff, i would be living on my own in my own place and all. damn high living cost. ugh.


well, all i can say is i miss you carl. i could really use you in my life right now. yea.

viva las vegas

went to las vegas this past weekend. spent 1 night at my own house this whole past week. and i didnt take any pictures. great.


smile for me pussycat.

finals schminals

well a lots happened. school is basically over. thank the lord. (wow that sounded like a becky thing to say, but i swear i didnt say it like her. but that doesnt me i dont love the big man upstairs. j.c. is my homeboy :])

thats besides the point.

gots tons to do:

-read the fucking sambia book [its pretty interesting i might add]

-read/study for my anthro final [tomorow]

-study for all my other classes

-find a quiet place to study

-get my laptop to start working

-move out

ugh my life this house. the people in it swear. ok so i sont really mean the last thing but i sure wish i could. it would be impossible for me to move out. unless i lived in a cardboard box, then it might work.

happy really really late mothers day!

she found all of MY coloring books.

im teaching her how to drive early.

o bubba. what a fat boy.

the woo house of torture.

thanks for excluding me from the picture family

cinco de drinko

i know its a little late, but cinco de drinko was bomb. thanks to none other than joyce.


sunday was the little woo's birthday. we went to the beach of course.


scar and i would ditch photo on monday to go to the beach.


and today was 'let annoy sara' day. i swear.





this blog is the product of my procrastination. thank you very much.

happy birfdizzle little one

my lil man





















crazy kids


















these girls. they swear. modeling on the beach. pshhh.
















you know your from oklahoma when......

ok here it goes

bubba

i just thought this was cool

the ticket for my wii. the LAST one

my lil man

this whole article talked about the sports injuries you ccould get. from a wii....

borat?

apparently a big fan of borat

filled with love

the line i stood in fro my fuckin wiiiiiii

mama and bubba

we like to see his 'about to cry' face

he likes lemons

kansas to california=helll

finally in sunny california

p.s. the INTERNATIONAL kansas city aiport. nothing compared to lax

happy feet

my bff from kansas

well, i have just been enjoying the babies and errthing. they are bomb. haydin, so cute. bubba. omg. cherie. bomb. life now couldnt be better. well it could but im being optimistic

:]