It Won't Be Long

Across The Universe is the shiiiiiiiiit. I love this movie a lot.

Well, today Nikki and Joann graduated. Pure nostalgia at Rosary High School. Two years ago, that was me and my class sitting there, switching our tassels from right to left [or left to right? i dont know]. But it was weird to say the least. But nonetheless, congrats to Nikki and Joann.

It was a weird day. Wasn't feeling too happy even when I woke up. Crazy tired. I just felt weird about the day in general. So, whatever. I've gone 4 years since my stepdad has passed away and I made through with just myself and my friends. It's the 4th year and I still can't accept it. I don't think I will ever accept it. I mean, for sure my life would be a whole lot different if he were still here, but my life wouldn't be what it is right now. I wouldn't have all those that love me surrounding me, such great friendships. I've come to learn everything happens for a reason whether we like it or not. Sometimes for the better, sometimes, not so much. We will make it through. I have realized I have been through so much shit in my life. All that stuff just builds up these walls that won't come down. And these walls keep my head and heart from going crazy. It may seem like I'm pessimistic, but I'm just looking out for myself. When there is something worth putting my guard down for, I'm sure I will let it be. But for now, I keep up my walls.

Man, I love Across The Universe! I should have been born in the 60's/70's. I would have been such a good hippie.

PAM! PAM!

Today was the first of the two gradutaions this weekend. Honestly, I hated it. I do not want to sit through another graduation ever again.



It was nice seeing my cousins and my aunt and uncle. Time has gone by too fast. My baby cousin was driving me around. That was crazy weird. Driving up to Camarillo was interesting. Island jams kept my cool during crazy LA traffic this afternoon on the way up. On the way back home, I found this cool station that had "Aloha Friday's." It was too legit. It played island jams and some Jack Johnson. It was a calming ride home. And I got home in about an hour. That was pretty sweet compared to the 2 hours that it took me to get there earlier in the day.



Well, part 1 of the weekend down. Part 2 tomorrow. We'll see how that goes. Congrats Meg!!!!



And tomorrow, CONGRATS NIKKI AND JOANN!!!!!!!!!! i love you both!!!

Well, I've been feeling sort of sick these past couple of days. I wake up and my throat hurts like crazy. But as stubborn as I am, I refuse to take some medicine.

That was some boring news, but anyways summer is in full full swing. What have I done so far this week? Well, the weekend was fun to say the least. I was a GREAT weekend really. But once tuesday hit, it got boring. No! I take that back! Tuesday was pretty fun. I went to visit Jenna and then after I went to Scars to play Rockband! :D ILOOOOVVVVVVEEEE rockband! I can't wait until it comes out for the wii! Anyways, we played rockband for a while and decided to go for a walk. Little did we know, there were nasties driving around tuesday afternoon. But we walked to that little yoga place near scars house. And we saw my mom at the chinese food place. Suprise Suprise. O Tonie. She....wow.

So the walking experience was fun. It made me think....Hmmm maybe I should start walking to the jack in the box on beach blvd. but then i thought again, dang, i'm too lazy for that. And I wouldn't want to walk anlone. But I enjoyed walking with scar. it was fun.

work work work. more like lame lame lame. But I really hope the other girl calls out today so i dont have to go in at all today! that would be the best day ever. really, evveeerrrr!

i miss dancing :(

dang

this is crazy. but i love it. 

Your Friendship

At this moment in time, I am so thankful for everyone of my friends. I am truly blessed with such great people in my life. I don't know how my life would be without every single one of my friends. Sometimes I do get mad, but we all need to vent at some time right? I'm so lucky each and every one of you [my friends] are so forgiving and loving. Your love is extravegant.

Enough of the mushys. No new happenings. Summer is in full swing. Today Jenna and I registered for classes. That was an accomplishment. Nothing else has happened since summer had started. Just dreams galore....and i honestly dont know how i feel about one of them. But whatever. It's cool.

My allergies are killing me right now and I hate it! Make me feel better?

All I Want Is

a new car. Is that too much to ask for Albert?

The Office

It was a great episode tonight. Goodbye Toby. I love that show. Love Love LOVE!!!!

Nate comes home from science camp tomorrow. And it's his birthday. And my human bio final. It will be a tiring day. But hey, after 11 a.m., I will only have one more final and BAM! I'm done with spring semester!!!!

ooo! And Albert said YESSSS!!!!!!!

A Pua For Your Hair

Summer is just around the corner. I can taste it. Looking at Tahiti pictures earlier made me miss it so much. And it made me miss last summer. It was a great summer to say the least. Here's to another great summer :]

In other news, today I went to Forest Lwan to pay a little visit between finals. Carl and Kalr. What a coincidence right? My Stepdad and Karl my friend are both in the same cemetary. and within walking distance of each other. Pretty convinients, for the circumstances. Well, while i was sitting at Karl's site [I think? Thers no head plate yet[, my left hip began to itch in the area of the piercing. So, luckily I decide to check it out. Turns out, one of the balls unscrewed and the end of one side of the piercing was piercing my inside. OK, so not really piercing my inside, but irritating it. So, i have a quick little freak out. I had to think quick. So i took one of the balls from my industrial and screwed it onto my hip bar. But now, i have a bar with a clear ball and a metal ball and another bar with just one ball. I need to go buy jewelry. Thanks life, for making piercings so difficult.

2 of my 5 finals are out of the way. 1 more tomorrow, 1 on Friday, and I'm going to take my Antrho final on saturday. Then, SPRING SEMESTER IS OVER!!!! And I could not be any happier to say the least. May is so busy. And this weekend, I jope I can convince Albert to buy me an xB! If I do, I will be the happiest person alive!!!!! Pleas Albert, just say yes!

Then I can be twinsies with Miguel! 

I joke.

Good Intentions

I find that everything I do in life, whether it be successful or not, is done with nothing but good intentions. And i always get that feeling inside of "Dang, maybe I'm not a good friend." Should i be feeling that? I sure hope not. I try to invite people everywhere I go if I am able to. I try to keep people up to date in my life. I try to keep up in their life. I just try really hard. And sometimes I feel like I am the most annoying person in the world. Is that so wrong? 

I throw out invitations left and right for dinners, lunches, talks, etc. etc. and they are shot down every time. I'm not pinpointing anyone really. It is just really frustrating right now especially with the circumstances that have happened. I have put a lot of crap aside and i just sit and think. I feel like not asking anymore, but in my heart, I know that is really mean. Maybe I am just too nice. Who knows? I just am tired of being the friend that is pushed aside all the time. The friend that would drop anything and do anything for a friend in a heartbeat, but never really seems to be appreciated. I've been taking things really close to heart lately. And I've been taking things very personally and hard. 

It's been a tough two weeks to say the least. I'm still trying to cope with things. And Yenna!, I love you. You told me straight up to just cheer up Charlie and thats what I need to hear. I would also love to just pour out my feelings and cry. But I think I'm over that because it's just not me and Yenna knows that. Thanks Yenna.

Well, its time to do Kristy's spelling homework. I miss those really easy fourth grade assignments.

as soon as tonie approves, this will be on my foot. a memorial tattoo. it will help me cope. and it is very simple and elegant. hopefully, it will go down this weekend. 

p.s. happy cinco de drinko you alcholics

It's so hard to say goodbye

It really is.....

The End of the Road

Well, it has come to this. I can't believe this is really happening. It is all so surreal to me still, to this day. Karl passed away more than a week ago, and I still cannot grasp that concept. I still think I will see him randomly walking around school. I'm going to see him at the Pius festival singing his heart out in the kareoke competition. I will see him picking up his brothers from school and hear him yell "SARA!" I will look at him and say "hey Karl" and he will respond with "I'll see you next time." and we will both drive off with our sibiling in our cars. That is what I am waiting for.

I am really just waiting for reality to hit me. It still has not sunken in that none of this will ever happen again.I write about it and talk about, yet it still doesn't process. I miss you Karl. We all do. It is truly a tragic loss for every person that knew you. Thursday night and Friday were so crazy. The amount of people that came and showed you their last respeacts. They may have been last respects for this life, but not for eternity. We will meet again.

On a lighter note, Pius is an intresting group of people. Especially the 8th grade class of 2002.

[those 2 white boys in the side, sooo not Pius]