Thanks

Well todayI woke up late for school....again. Story of my life. But I went to class anyways. So go me! Then I came home cause I went to school looking like crap so I was going to change and whatnot. I eneded up cleaning my room. And I got my other laptop to work!

I don't really know what happened, but it decided to start working again! And I am so happy. All my pictures and whatnot where on that laptop. It for sure mde my day! So now I have 2 laptops. =]

Went to my second class, my logic class. I'm behind cause I didn't go to one class last week. It's ok though. I got it. Then I sat at Wendy's (juicy redhead haha the office) waiting for the kids to get out of school. I had to pick up Donna too along with my kid's. Headache or what. I still have a headache and they havent been in the house for a good hour. Came home and tried to nap. Didnt work.

OMG. When I picked up the kids from school, Patrick [Karl's brother] picked up Ronnie [Karl's other brother] and I saw that Patrick had a tattoo in memory of Karl. And I got really sad. REALLY REALLY sad. It hurt my heart. It was a really pretty tattoo though.

So now i'm at home waiting to go to work. I tried to take a nap before going to work cause i'll be hella tired if i don't. Well turns out I didn't nap cause my head hurt. -__-

So now I am off to work at Starbucks 6518. Secretly i'm really happy. But I don't want to say why. But lets just say, I enjoy closing ;)

So heres to a day of great successssss:
-a clean room
-a made bed
-2 working laptops
-more reading in "The Kite Runner"


p.s. I feel HELLA overweight right now. Joy and I are going on a diet on thursday.
Peace.

It's All In A Day's Work

Well, I am really going to try to write in this thing all the time. I don't really know who reads these little blogs of mine, but I will do my best to keep you entertained. 

So today was nice. I opened with Erin and Jennifer A. It's cute how they treat me like a child. Actually, I think I may be the youngest at that store. That makes me feel so special. Well Erin sang to me some song about a whale and Jennifer kept calling me 'babydoll." Then abuelita Irene came in and she is just so darn cute. I love her. She is going to make me a cake for my birthday. She's so sweet. 

After work I went home to change and freshen up before my 11 o'clock class. I left my house at 10:50. It takes 15-20 minutes to get to school. You do the math. Nonetheless, I was late. I still needed to get a parking pass but the machine next to my class would be broken and I was not up for the 5 minute walk to the next machine, so I bounced. Yup. I paid the rest of my tuition and got a parking pass for realsies so now I have no legit reason to skip class. I went back home after the 5 minutes I spent at school and knocked the eff out. I watched season one of The Office. I love that show.  Then Tonie and the kids came home from school and I knew it was time to get out of the house being that they had brought a friend over. So I went to pick up my tips and lo and behold Kristen was there. We talked and she told me to learn how to say no. she is right. Anyways, picked up my $13 of tips in quarters and dimes. (hey, at least they're not nickels) I came home and then went to Starb with Mich Gualt. She slays me.

I got some work done. Michelle on the other hand didn't get anything done I don't think. And I saw the Johnny Depp look alike that used to come to my old store! Ahhh he's too cute. And i proffesed my love of him to Michelle. Michelle got antsy so we walked to Targ and I got a comfortor for $7. It was a good deal. Came home and now I am here laying under my new comforter. It feels nice. 

So I am listening to some calming music right now and while listening, I reminisced on the past a little. What if things had gone differently, you know, the usual. But I realized, no way Jose! It all happened the way it happened because I am for one not a whore. Yup. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Friendships mostly, a little bit of family in the mix, and of course myself. And I realized, my family and myself are the only people I really need to worry about. Sure my friends are important, but there will be those times they will betray you. It is almost promised. And for sure, even family can betray you. But they are blood. I guess it's different. But anyways, I've learned [finally] that I am ready to fly. I have said that so many times I know but I have had so much time to think and so many experiences lately that I know I have grown and matured greatly. Things are not the same and I am finally ok with that. I may not like it but there is nothing in my power that I can do about it. So all I can do is worry about my life and where I am going. My journey is finally beginning. A little late, sure, but i'm on my way. My train is leaving.

Uno Dos Tres Cuatro

I'm officially old.

PB&J FOREVER!!!!!

I can't believe Jim proposed!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!

Jim proposing will probably be the higlight of my life. It will probably be better than the day my fiance proposes to me. Sad, but true.


PB&J!!!!!!

Goodbye

Tonie's camera is broken. I think I may be responsoble for that. Fuck my lifeeeee. I'm scared shitless to tell her. She already is mad at me. What's next? Am I going to burn the house down?

Sooner or Later

it all comes crashing down, crashing down when everyone's around.

It's been a really hard week. A really, really hard week.

O No!

My poor bootime! Ok, so he's not MY bootime, but still. I worry about him. Poor thing. This basically sums up the thursday night we went to Rage for Allan's birthday. Not a great start to your birthday huh?

FML?

1. For all of you that actually read my blog or keep up with my life, Tonie found out about the party. Why you ask? Well dumbass right here did'nt clean the bathroom. So now I'm in deep sheetttt. Thanks to everyone that came to my house and used my bathroom and tore it up. Thanks a lot for disrespecting my house. I should have known better and not have thrown such a big party.
2. Never make friends with lesbians and their girlfriends. When they break up, it is usually ugly. Then they will date your other lesbian friends ex. Then you will be stuck in the middle. No big deal you say? Well it kinda is cause well you're stuck between two friends. Trust is in question from both of them. You don't EVER want to take sides with either of them. They both don't like each other and they come to you with their troubles. Trying to be a good friend, you listen and be there for them. What do you get in return? A slap in the face and you lose at least one friend. It's not worth all the trouble. This pretty much goes with straight friends too. So just be warned.
3. Always go to class. Especially when the professor says "Next class we will talk about the upcoming test." There will probably be announcement of when your test will be.
4. Count your blessings, keep your head up, don't depend on others to be there always, and learn to count on yourself. Only you are there at all times for yourself. When you learn that, you become more independent and learn an important lesson.
5. All of the problems in your life always stem from yourself. Only you can change and manipulate what happens. Sure, somethings will totally catch you of guard [death, etc.], but for the most part the outcome of your life depends on you and how you live it.
6. I am learning this everyday. The more I live my life, the more I feel that it just keeps getting worse and worse. Take a step back and look at whats happening. Every outcome comes from your choices. Look at your blessings most of all. When life gets bad, we just seem to look at the bad and never seem to realize the good.
-Be thankful for your life. Your alive, so live it up.
-Be thankful for your family, especially your parents. Tonie is the greatest. My punishment could have been far worse and probably would have been for a lot of people. Tonie knows that I know what I did was wrong and that I am sorry and I don't even have to say it. And even though I rarely ever see Albert, I am thankful just to know that he is still there. I'm not without a father like my brother and sister. I got to experience my childhood with a dad and they never will.
-Be thankful for your friends. Those closest to you almost know you as well as you do. And that's a gift. They are there for you through the thick and the thin. Some may be rather recent friends and some you can trace back to 1st grade. Irregardless, they love you and you love them. Distance is nothing when you have love. Even though my bff is in Sand Diego and can no longer be with me within minutes, I know she's still in my heart and that she is there no matter what.

Gone Baby Gone

Well, Tonie leaves tonight for Las Vegas. Sin City. I opted out on this adventure, well, for many reasons.
1. I do not like being teased. Alcohol, gambling, and whatever else there is to do in Vegas for 21 year-olders is just looking at me and saying "Just one more year. HAHA!" And I'm not down for that.
2. Family Trip. Need I say more? I honestly wouldn't mind it if it were mean and my brother and sister. No big deal. But when there are 5 kids ages 13, 12, 11, 10, and 5 and a 19 year old all together, I would think that adds up to zero fun for me and a lot of babysitting. No thanks Tonie.
3. Allan's Birthday. Once again, need I say more?

Last night, we (myself, Allan, Jeremy, Roberta, Jeff, and jezzelle?) went to Rage to help Allan bring in his 20th Birthday. Little did we know the night would end in blood and tears. Ok so the tears were real, i'm not going to lie. Allan was crying and I felt soooo bad for him. As for the blood, I didn't see it but how everyone described how Jeremy got jumped, it sure sounded bloody. Long story short, Jeremy was in the emergency room last night. What a great birthday. You're boyfriend getting jumped and going to the emergency room. I'm sorry Allan. =[ But this weekend will make up for it.

Well, I need to do something other than this. So more later. Hopefully tomorrow will be fun =]!

OMG

i didnt even realize how long its been. I've been too preoccupied with missing someone that is still here that i forgot about my cousins anniversary. I'm sorry angelito. 

Angelito,

i really miss you. more than you or anyone knows. This drama in our family is bull and you know it too. Watching down on us from heaven, you must be thinking "what moron my tias and tios are!" and trust me, im thinking the same thing. Its dumb and we know it. im tired of it angelito. please help them find peace. not just for them but for our whole broken family. so that as cousins, we can all actually get along. so that i can see tias and tios without coming home and hearing my mom complain about how awful her brothers and sisters are and without them talking about her behind her back. its too much. you know our family is messed up when i dont even want to see them. ever. i love you so much and i miss you more than ever. thank you for constantly watching over me and keeping us safe. my tito, my angel, my love. i miss you.