You Spin Me Right Round

Well, life is always throwing obstacles at me. Always. Left and right, something is always throwing something at me questioning my plans. Really, it's kinda getting old, but what can you do? I have no choice but to make decisions as the day goes by. I mean, sure I have to choose which shirt I should wear everyday. But i'm talking like life decisions that I need to make everyday. It seems like everyday something is thrown my way telling me to change my plans.

Example: Apparently Cheere told Tonie that it is most likely that she will be deployed to Afghanistan in June...THIS YEAR! WTF?!?!?! And then to top it off, she said B would be deployed in August to Iraq. Again, WTF????! So that would mean that the kids will stay here, basically, forever. You might as well get me pregnant. It would feel exactly the same way. Minus the whole pregnancy thing.

Now, i'm caught up into what I should do. I have had a lot of time thinking since I have nothing else to do during the day. I've talked to my recruiter twice and I have a practice test on Monday or Wednesday. Then after that, I could take the real test. But now with this whole kids thing, I dont know if it would be right for me to leave Tonie with four kids for forever. I mean, I know I should do what I want to do, but I don't know if it's right to just get up and leave. I didn't make the decision to have the kids stay with us and it shouldn't be my responsibility to take care of them. But they have grown to be a part of me. I love them. The Navy would be an experience of a lifetime, for sure. But, these kids....man. It's tough. I'm thinking of just going back to school and doing stuff. I really don't know what to do. My o my.

So, a big shout out/thank you to B and Cheere. Thanks for making my head spin constantly. I appreciate it big time....NOT!

In other news, well, there isn't really any. I watched The Kite Runner, Pursuit of Happyness, and Batman (thanks to Netflix!) and I loved all of them. I'm gonna clean my room now cause it is a hot mess.

O-B-A-M-A!

Welcome To Change.
Adorable.

Amazing. Get it!

History Made Right Before Our Own Eyes.

This sums up January 20, 2009. Another day that will go down in history. A man with a dream and hope that America today can be better. And he's ready for the challenge. I believe in you Prez.

Just Do It

This weekend was a nice weekend.

Jenna's babyshower was a hit. There was lots of old ladies. And 1 pregnant woman. And a handful of younger people. But nonetheless, it was muy entertaining. The Crowley's can always make me laugh. And that is a good thing.

Well, after the shower, the mom-to-be and I went to Sonics before heading to the tattoo shop. I like the fact that Sonics sells tots. Not just french fries, or curly fries or criss cut fries. TOTS! It's amazing. If there were more Sonics around, I would def go more often. I should write them a letter. Or better yet, I should make a commercial like theirs convincing them to put one near my house. They would give in for sure.

We got to the shop on time. But we didn't start until 8:15. I watched the clock in anticipation, waiting to get what would be my biggest, most noticeable tattoo. I was nervous. She took forever to set up and what not, but I was ok with that. Even though she is slow, I know it's because she will do a good job. So at 8:15, we began what would turn into a journey. It took almost 3 1/2-4 hours to complete the piece. We took, I want to say, a total of 3 breaks. Once after the outlining was done. Another when my arms were cramping and I needed to move and another when my back was absolutely killing me. Well, after all the pain and cramping, she was done. When I saw it as a finished product, I fell in love instantly. It is most definately my favorite tattoo. It is beautiful. I love love loveeee it!!!! It was a pretty ballsy move on my part to get it on my side. She even warned me that it would be a tough ride, but I knew that it was where I wanted it. I was a trooper. No tears or anything! High five to me. And a big shout out to Jenna for sticking it through with me. And being pregnant. Thanks so much for sitting there the entire time. You're really a great best friend! And a shout out to Silas ;)

Sunday, I drove home from the desert with Silas stuff in my car. It made me think about Jenna and when she will deliver the child. It was interesting thinking about how different things will be. But in a good way of course. Lil S will be here. He can have whatever he likes :) I love him. Well, I got home and crashed. I was exhausted. The whole weekend took a lot out of me, especially the tattoo. I was sooo tired. It was unbelievable. But I basically did a whole bunch of nothing on Sunday. I watched some SNL with the Fell's after delivering Silas' stuff. But I just headed back to Tonies after. It was a tiring, yet well worth it weekend.

I'm not going to lie, I missed the kids. After being with them day in and day out for months, leaving them for a couple days seems like an eternity. I don't know how B and Cheree do it. If they were my kids, I don't think I could ever do it. Hell, they aren't my kids and I miss them after a day.

Well my body is in pain (still) and I can't sleep. Bubba has fallen asleep right next to me. He's too cute. Well, goodnight.

National Creep Sara Out Day?

So work was disgusting today.
1. Victor/Viktohr/ whatever the hell his name is was there when I got there.
2. Eddie R. was there. He is a CREEPER to the max! Eww, he is just weird and creepy and always trying to make conversation with me. I mean, maybe if he wasn't creepy and didn't move like a snail, I would be ok talking to him. Even then, it would be a stretch.
3. Here's the gold medal winner: Julio. My opinion of him from the beginning has been "Ewww, never. Not ever." And especially after those 2 incidents that I know of, NEVER EVER! Today, he was, according to Joy, 'flirting with me' and 'he wants to hit that." That is gross Joy. And there would be no hitting of this. He played tic tac toe and rock paper scissors with me. And before that, he asked me if I had a boyfriend, if I was seeing anyone, or if I went on dates and stuff. Ok, so maybe i'm over thinking this. But really?!


I got the Dark Knight today from Netflix (my new BFF) and I am probably the only person that hasn't seen the whole thing yet. I was gonna finish it when I got home from work but I was too caught up in my own mind that I haven't watched it yet (and cause Rene keeps talking to me). So, I guess i'll finish it tomorrow.

Jenna's baby shower is this Saturday and I am muy excited. It means Baby S is almost here! Which means I will be driving Jenna to the hospital soon! Holla! And Saturday also means there will be one more tat on my bod. All of this! you lub it?! I lub it! I'm really excited!!!

Here We Go Again

I am pretty much infuriated right now.

But, I have a lot to be angry about. So I guess it works out. No school! (I'm not angry about that)
Babies. Liars. Bye.

This blog does not make sence one bit, but whatever.

Here

So, that last blog with all that 365 crap...yea, it didn't really work out. I'm too lazy and just too consumed in other things to even try to get a picture that sums up my day. It lasted like 3 days tops. At least I tried.

I've been in a really weird mood lately. It's like I don't want to talk to anyone because they annoy me, but i get annoyed because they don't talk to me. It's weird. I guess everything going on (even though there really isn't much going on) is getting to me. The kids are REALLY getting to me. I do not like taking care of them anymore. Well, I never really did, but I hate it so much more when the littlest things that they do annoy me. I am losing my patience (what little I had) and getting frustrated. I hate kids.

Project 3-6-5!

Project 365 makes me think about disney 365 only because of the similarity in the name. And I sing it in my head everytime I mention project 365.

Well, Project 365 is basically something you do for yourself. On New Year's Da, Scar and I had one of our life talks and how this year is going to be really different. And Project 365 will help us look at our year and remember every single day. The point of the project is to take one picture everyday and by the end of the year have 365 pictures that sum up your year. Each picture should represent that day in the year. It should be fun, but let me tell you it's pretty hard. Its only day 4 and I have almost forgotten to take a picture twice! I hope this works out cause it should be fun looking back :]

Happy New Year!

It's been awhile. Everything is just pure chaos at my house and it's hard to just find the tiem of day to sit and blog. Whatever.

Well, I got my DS for Christmas! Thats about it.

New years was actually pretty decent. It's the first time i've spent new years with my family in years and the first time without friends around. Clearly, a lot has changed. 2008 was not the best year of my life. Lots of downs, but I guess those things eventually had to happen. But this year, it is going to be different. I know it already. I'm finally going to do things for myself and finally do what I want to do. I'm not holding back anymore. I know say a lot, but this time, it's for real. I've made some life changing decisions and they will be going into effect soon.

So here's to an awful 2008 and the best 2009 ever. Life is what you make it, so live your life.