You Spin Me Right Round

Well, life is always throwing obstacles at me. Always. Left and right, something is always throwing something at me questioning my plans. Really, it's kinda getting old, but what can you do? I have no choice but to make decisions as the day goes by. I mean, sure I have to choose which shirt I should wear everyday. But i'm talking like life decisions that I need to make everyday. It seems like everyday something is thrown my way telling me to change my plans.

Example: Apparently Cheere told Tonie that it is most likely that she will be deployed to Afghanistan in June...THIS YEAR! WTF?!?!?! And then to top it off, she said B would be deployed in August to Iraq. Again, WTF????! So that would mean that the kids will stay here, basically, forever. You might as well get me pregnant. It would feel exactly the same way. Minus the whole pregnancy thing.

Now, i'm caught up into what I should do. I have had a lot of time thinking since I have nothing else to do during the day. I've talked to my recruiter twice and I have a practice test on Monday or Wednesday. Then after that, I could take the real test. But now with this whole kids thing, I dont know if it would be right for me to leave Tonie with four kids for forever. I mean, I know I should do what I want to do, but I don't know if it's right to just get up and leave. I didn't make the decision to have the kids stay with us and it shouldn't be my responsibility to take care of them. But they have grown to be a part of me. I love them. The Navy would be an experience of a lifetime, for sure. But, these kids....man. It's tough. I'm thinking of just going back to school and doing stuff. I really don't know what to do. My o my.

So, a big shout out/thank you to B and Cheere. Thanks for making my head spin constantly. I appreciate it big time....NOT!

In other news, well, there isn't really any. I watched The Kite Runner, Pursuit of Happyness, and Batman (thanks to Netflix!) and I loved all of them. I'm gonna clean my room now cause it is a hot mess.