im ready

to move on. im tired of this shit. i amm not one to use vulgar language a lot but, fuck this shit. im fuckin over it. i thought being a "best friend" meant you would AT LEAST let your bff know some life changing events in your life. like, i dont know, maybe that you have a boyfriend now right? or am i wrong? no im pretty sure im right. im am ready to lash out, fight someone, anyone really. preferably the person i am talking about. i mean really, i knew we didnt really talk anymore only because we were both so busy but fuck that. if this person has time to fuck around with some guy and not even bother to see how one of her best friends is doing, then fuck her. its bullshit really. tonight, im just ready to put her on blast and just lash out. i dont care if her birthdays coming up i dont care if it will affect her, im done. this has gone way to far.

jaes taylor, you are wrong. i do not have a friends her. when i call out her name, she will not come running to help me or see me. she wont even bother to ask whats wrong when clearly i have been down for like a month now. shit, i am so angry right now. it is not fun getting the inside scoop on your best friends life from other people.

if tomorrow, scar and JF are my only true BFF's, so be it. whatever. fuck her nd her man and for not even telling me. now i know what it is when we would say,"What will life be like when we arent bff's?" we always said that would never, but our future isnt promised.

peace.