Happiness Is A Warm Gun

So this is what happiness feels like.

These past couple of weeks have been very emotional. Not just these past couple of weeks, but these last couple of years. Everythingin my life seemed to be crashing down on me and there was no way to make it stop. Things in my world kept caving in and there was no way I could stop it. I tried to stay positive, but failed each time and reminded of how awful things were. All that changed during these past 2 weeks.

Nikki and I are like BFF's like no other pair of BFF's. Our relationship is indescribable. We may not have been obvious to everyone, but we had been fighting this whole year. Last weekend, we finally cleared that up. I got everything off my chest and it felt good. She told me to clear everything that had hurt me or made me mad in my life so I could finally be happy. She was the first step. This past week, I had been doing different things. I've been happier, but I knew I could be happier than I was.

Today, I went to talk to Albert. It was an emotional talk, but it needed to be done. There was no more avaoiding it. I was tired of it. So we finally talked and I put everything out on the table. And, I survived. It was hard thouugh (thats what she said) and hella scary. I was nervous, scared, and about to shit my pants honestly. But after it was all said and done, I still felt like crap. I started driving away and headed to Starbs to visit Jenna and talk to her. Halfway thereNikki had texted me asking how I felt after and thats when I realized, Damn I feel really good. And after sucha a talk, that is basically all you can feel. I got everything off my chest, cleared everything up, let my feelings show, talked, and showed emotion in front of Albert. That is something I have never done. And I am still in shock that I did it. It's amazing, simply amazing how much I have grown in a couple of weeks. I guess your twenties open your eyes.

Well that's all the happenings of today. I looked at potential schools to transfer to yesterday. It was a weird feeling honestly. I'm looking at schools up north- Nor Cal. What Up ??? I don't know the area codes, so we'll just wait til I decide for the shout out to my new area code ;)

Be Happy :)