Your Shit Don't Phase Me

This evening, talks with bff scar were nice and much needed. I've noticed that as just this summer has gone by, we have realized that we are adults. Strange to say and even think. Me and Scar adults?!?!?!? WTFFFFF?!?!?! We are probably one of the most childlike people on the planet. But it is amazing. We talked. And we realizde one of our biggest struggles as of late is that we don't let ourselves have fun anymore. We are too preoccupied with work and whatnot that we forget to just sit back and enjoy things. We are just so tired and tied up in the hustle and bustle of things that it's hard to do anything but sleep on our time off. As summer quickly comes to an end, I've thought about it. Sure it was an emotional time. Sure things didn't go as planned. And sure as hell it was rocky. I look back and look at all the fun times i just let go. I mean, I don't regret it, but I look and think to myself, "Why?" Why did I waste so much energy on something so little that doesn't really mean anything anymore? Why did I give up on something I wanted so badly to work out? It has all already happened. And it happened that way for a reason. Whatever though. I'm fine with it and in a way, I'm glad I took things the way I did. I've grown a lot this summer even though it came with tears and bitchiness galore. I've learned more than ever this summer that we are here for a short time. Whatever happens, happens and it happens for a reason. Just go with the flow of things, good or bad. It is all beyond your power whether you like to admit it or not. Just live peacefully and in love. That's all we can do. Goodbye summer. Even though it was one of the worst, inside of me it was one of much growth.