as tears roll down the street......

why is life so complicated? what did I, sara borrego, ever do to deserve anything that i am currently getting/have gotten in my life? why is everything geting taken away from me? first my family then my friends. why? i dont understand. people say god will only give you only what you can handle. god must think i can handle a lot cause things keep getting thrown my way. i dont understand. as christmas comes along i cant help but think of all the people i have lost and that i will never get them back. and the friends that i used to be so close with and how our frendship will never be the same.i want to go sit a corner and cry but if i do that, i will be vulnerable. and i hate that. i hate when people see me crying and ask whats wrong. shit im not gonna tell everyone. i know htis blog is open to everyone but hinestly who reads this shit anyways. me right? i just want to get away. i cant wait until next winter when i will be done with cypress and hopefull [cross my fingers] be leaving for a good college. somewhere away from all this. i cant wait. i cant wait to start over. i cant wait to be living a life of my own. but i miss life. the way it was. the happy days when i knew i could go to the certain people in my life and tell them my problems. and tell them how i felt. but life.....




it s what we pray for.
love is what we stay for.