drunkass

well, what a weekend i was. and truly, i enjoyed it. it was somewhat boring but arcadia and ireland [jf's nieces] entertained me. arcadia and her cheer competition and ireland and her 'sexybadboys.' i forgot how much i enjoyed little children. they are so fun and full of life! i love kids. even though i hate them. but i do love ireland and arcadia. jf's hometown, well not much of what im used to but it was nice. i will go back one day. i honestly really wasnt expecting much but it was fun for the little that we did. it was an experience.

i just want to say this, DRUNK PEOPLE ARE NOT THE BUISNESS! and if ive talked to you, you know what i mean. and really, im thinking about lashing out and embarrassing people on their special day. but lets be real, im not that mean. and i would never get drunk just to get back at someone or to prove a point. when im ready to drink again, ill do it. the reason i dont drink anymore has happened more than once to not me. and quite obviously, it has had no effect on that person cause they want that situation whether they admit it or not. the end. of that story.

theres so much on my mind right now. things are not going the right way, and i just want to get away. from here. if i get away, i feel like everything will melt away with it. i know thats not true, but its nice to think about. i want to feel normal again. like when i would be with my friends 24/7. when i saw my best friends everyday. when i was content with life. now its just crap that i need to think out all the time and figure out what to do about every situation. i hate it. no friends. no life. just me.


on the brightside of things, my brother will be back in the states for a couple a days beginning tomorrow i believe. not for good reasons, but he'll be in oklahoma. and my house is extremely hot right now.

peace bitches.