lesson learned

really, im just not myself lately and i dont know what to do about it. its just a weird phase i guess. even chad noticed that i wasnt ok tonight at practice. i have just been staaring off in the distance thinking about nothing. just staring. its not fun but its gets me away from where i am, so i guess its ok? i dont know whats wrong with me.

so after practice scar scar and i had a life talk. it was nice. i kind of needed it with either her or the other so called bff. but lets be real, the other bff hasnt been the greatest, so i just depend on scar. it was a nice talk. i really enjoyed it and im glad i got everything out to her. i really really truly needed it. and im glad i could finally spill out to her, being one of my best friends ever sice 1st grade. i love her. but being comfortable at home is not bueno for us. i am so ready to leave this place behind and live my life. ive screwed up so much in school but now im ready to fix that. im ready to do what i want to do and i have set my goals and am sticking to them. im ready to spread my wings and fly away from home.


its what i need. its what we need. life has thrown me a lot of lemons, but i havent made my lemonade yet. now with all these lemons under my belt, im ready to make the best, sweetest, lemonade anyone has ever had. its the borrego special =]


peace beezys