I Poke Her Face.

So I got home from work today and got onto the computer and did the usual...Facebook, Myspace, Perez, Fmylife, and then checked my mail. Well, when I got onto Perez, he had a post about a song Kanye, Kid Cudi, and Common did to Lady Gaga's Pokerface. I must say, its pretty legit. Also, while on my little online escapade, I was on Twitter for some reason. And I got one. I don't know how I feel abouut it yet. I'll probably never use it. But I can say I have one.

So, only a few people will know what I will be rambling about after this, but its ok. I just need to get it out there. And it's not going to be a lot, but its going to be some. If that makes any sense at all.
-Tomorrow is our (mine and Tonie's) meeting with her financial advisor. And I am really, really, really, REALLY nervous about it. I guess I could say everything is on the line when it comes down to it. My future is in my hands right now and my life kinda depends on this meeting. Where I go in life in general, my family life, my moms trust, my education all comes down to this. And it also will tell me how much Tonie trusts me on so many levels. If she thinks I am mature and responsible enough to live on my own, to take care of myself, to trust me to make the right decisions, to choose the right path in life. And I guess you could say I already do these things in my day to day life at home. I take care of two kids when I don't even like kids that much and taking care of kids takes a lot of responsibility all in itself. If they are still alive and well, then I'm pretty sure I can take care of myself. Financially speaking, this whole plan will be cheaper than taking the LVN route I was going to take. It makes more sense. But it all comes down to what Tonie thinks. And I really hope she sees what she is doing/has done to me. And to get things clear, I don't blame Tonie for my troubles with the kids. Partly, yes, it is her fault. But that is a small part in the big picture. I blame my brother and cheree. It might sound bad, but it true. They don't understand that I stopped going to school to take care of their kids, I rarely go out so I can take care of their kids, I cut my hours at work so I can take care of their kids. I basically stopped my life to take care of their kids. And it's not fair. You should always help family, but it always comes to a point of where you are helping and when they are taking advantage of you. And thats the point it has come to.
If none of that made sense, I'm sorry. That's nice of you to read it though. haha. Well, thats it for now.