A Year Can Make All The Difference

A year ago today, a group of people with one thing in common would be in shock, confusion, and sadness. Karl was the one thread that held this very large group of people together.

On April 24, 2008, a dear friend from elementary school passed away. It came as a shock to all. No one saw this coming. I remember this day with such clarity. I was on facebook early in the morning because I had work that day in the morning. All I see are everyones Facebook status along the lines og "R.I.P. Karl Packing." Seeing this as one of the first things you look at in the morning is not the greatest thing. So many things started rushing through my mind. I was in shock. How did this happen? Why? Is this a joke?

Turns out it wasn't. I called the only person that I knew that might have some insight on what happened, Scar Scar. To everyone, little was known of the situation. I was lost. Then news would trickle in about what had happened. I go to work and I'm clearly not in the mood to be there. Good thing I wasn't scheduled to be on the floor. I was just there for fun basically. Jenna went on her lunch and we talked. I remember so clearly Jenna and I sitting there outside on the patio. I just kept repepatin "How did this happen? Why? I can't believe this!" It was so surreal.

A year later, and I am still having trouble grasping the idea. I clearly see his headplate everytime I go to the cemetary. His name is on there. A picture of his tattoo. Everything. All the evidence is there. But I still can't see it. It is so unreal to me. I can say that I'm retty used to unexpected deaths. Kinda like my thing in life. My cousin passed away unexpectedly, my stepdad. You know. But this hit hard. I'm not saying my cousin and stepdad didn't hurt, because trust me they did. But it's a different pain for each person.

Why did it have to end that way? There had to be another way.
Leaving this world is all part of God's plan. And sometimes those plans aren't to our liking. So, all we can do basically is suck it.

Forever in my heart. I love you Karl. Watch over us. I miss you.